I said in my last post that it's autumn in Sydney.. But now, it's changed to WINTER already! Dingin sekali di pagi hari, bisa sampai 5-7 derajat gitu.. Butuh perjuangan banget lho untuk bangun dari ranjang.. Tidak bisa lepas sama yang namanya selimut tebal dan penghangat..
Musim dingin yang kali ini katanya lebih dingin dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya guys.. Dampaknya adalah, saya jadi sering malas keluar rumah.. Biasanya hanya keluar dinner sebentar lalu pulang karena dingin banget.. Ingin nempel terus dengan tempat tidur,hhehehhe..
In this post, I will share 'behind the scene' story of my Master Degree's decision.. I hope in some ways, the point of this story can encourage you with whatever you face right now in your life.. Enjoy reading :)
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Back in year 2009, I chose Hospitality Management as my major and attended Blue Mountains Hotel School in Sydney, Australia. Untuk memperoleh gelar bachelor di major ini, durasi yang dibutuhkan hanyalah 2,5 tahun which was really quick karena sepengetahuan saya, kamu paling tidak membutuhkan waktu minimum 4 tahun untuk mendapatkan gelar sarjana di Indonesia.
I graduated in the mid of 2012, when I was still 20 years old. Jauh sebelum saya graduate, mami sebenarnya sudah menyarankan untuk melanjutkan pendidikan lagi ke jenjang yang lebih tinggi, which was Master. Saya dan mami sempat berdebat cukup lama mengenai hal ini. Saat itu, keputusan saya adalah tidak, saya merasa gelar S2 tersebut tidaklah begitu penting. Saya prefer terjun langsung ke dunia pekerjaan setelah graduation kelak.
Sesudah graduation itu selesai, mami sempat menyinggung lagi hal seputar master ini. Mami menyayangkan sekali jika saya tidak melanjutkan ke S2 karena saya masih muda dan masih bisa belajar banyak hal lagi yang dapat memberikan bekal penting untuk masa depan. Sekali lagi, saya menolaknya. Berhari-hari setelah itu, pertanyaan itu terus dilontarkan kepada saya karena semua anggota keluarga setuju dan mendukung sekali agar saya melanjutkan pendidikan lagi. And my answer was the same, I said no.
Then I said this to stop my mom asking me again and again : 'Mi, if later I want to do it, I will tell you straight away. But for now, I can assure you that there's no such thing as Master Degree in my mind. I just got a visa to work here and I want to have experience in my major. That's the only important thing which occupied my head now. Jangan buat saya jadi semakin banyak pikiran dong mi'.
That's it. She stopped and letting me do what I wanted to do.
I got my temporary visa till May 2014. 4-5 months before my visa expired, strange thing happened.
- On 1 fine day, I took a nap in the afternoon. Ketika bangun, saya dapat merasakan sekali bahwa ada 1 perubahan terjadi dalam hati ini. Tiba-tiba dalam hati saya timbul sendiri keinginan untuk mengambil Master. I still remember till now that I laughed to myself, saying "Lho kok, tahu-tahu pengen master? Mateng dah nanti pasti habis ini mami ceramah lagi,hahahahha". Sungguh saya berkata seperti itu sambil tertawa sendiri.
But I did what I said before, saya akan bilang ke mami langsung jika nanti saya ada keinginan sekolah lagi.
Tetap di hari yang sama, pada waktu sore, saya menelpon mami. Kurang lebih conversationnya berlangsung seperti ini :
Me : Mi..
Mom : Hmm? Kenapa Cin?
Me : Saya kok tahu-tahu barusan, ada pingin sekolah Master ya.. Hehehhe..
Mom : Lho.. Sudah dibilangi dari dlu bla bla bla bla bla.. (Mulailah sudah ceramahnya seperti perkiraan,hahahhahha)
Mom : (Setelah selesai berceramah), ya sudah kalau gitu kamu pengen ambil apa?
Me : Kalau sekolah lagi saya inginnya ambil komunikasi public relations.
Mom : Ok habis ini cepat cari-cari info sekolah yang bagus terus nanti telp mami lagi kalau sudah ketemu. Jangan lupa cari agent sekalian buat urus perpanjang visa. Mesti dari dulu tidak mau nurut sama mami.
Me : Hahahhahahha iya iya sabar atuh.. Nanti takabari lagi.. Daaa mii :)
Lalu setelah itu saya pergi ke agent, mulai tanya-tanya seputar ini itu, universitas yang bagus di Sydney dan tentunya Melbourne.. Di post-post saya sebelumnya, sempat saya sebutkan disitu bahwa saya ingin sekali pindah ke Melbourne.. Dulu sempat saya ingin coba apply pekerjaan disana tapi entah mengapa tiba-tiba semua lowongan yang dulu saya targetkan, hilang entah kemana.. Oleh karena itu saya memandang situasi ini, sebagai suatu kemungkinan bagi saya untuk dapat pindah ke Melbourne.
Saya menyebutkan 3 universitas yang termasuk paling baik di Sydney dan 1 uni yang saya suka di Melbourne, lalu pulang dengan membawa 4 bouklet buku mengenai uni-uni tersebut.
Hari-hari berikutnya, sehabis bekerja, saya sempatkan membaca buku-buku tersebut dan melakukan research, serta bertanya kepada orang-orang agar mendapatkan info yang lebih lengkap lagi. Saya kira untuk apply sekolah, saya hanya bisa memilih 1, namun ternyata kita bisa apply lebih dari 1. Oleh karena itu, akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk apply di 1 uni di Sydney dan 1nya lagi di Melbourne.
Agent saya pun berkata bahwa kebetulan sekali minggu depannya, akan ada perwakilan dari uni-uni di Sydney/Melbourne yang datang dan memberikan kesempatan untuk mengisi aplikasi sekolah tanpa dikenakan biaya. She said 'You are lucky. Usually they charge you but this time they do it for free. On that day you can ask as many questions as you like and apply straight away after that. I'm gonna be here to help you as well". Yuhuuuuuuuu :):)
Next week, saya datang membawa passport, ijazah serta script nilai-nilai saya di Blue Mountains dulu. Saya bertemu dan ngobrol secara langsung dengan perwakilan uni-uni tersebut. Lalu akhirnya saya yakin 100% akan apply di 2 uni tersebut, kakak perwakilan itu meminta semua data di sekolah saya yang dulu.
Pada waktu dia membaca dan melihat perincian nilai yang saya miliki, dia cukup terkejut. Lalu menanyakan hal ini,' You sure you apply for Communications major? With your marks in your previous uni, you can be accepted in Business Degree since we are looking for candidates that has score like you. You don't like MBA? Management?. I said, 'No thank you. I prefer communications'. He answered,' Okay then if that's what you like. It's good also. You can go to that lady over there. She will give you a form and you need to fill that out'.
Ketika saya pergi ke wanita tersebut, dia memberikan 2 formulir yang harus saya isi untuk apply di 2 uni yang saya suka, lalu sekali lagi meminta nilai-nilai saya yang dulu. She showed me the same reaction as him. She looked at my scores and said.' Why don't you apply for Master in Business. With this score, you can got accepted there. Your score suitted with our uni expectation. I'm just saying, I think Business is better for you'. I answered her,' Really? Hahha.. That guy over there said the same thing. Thank you but no, I prefer communications'. 'Okay then that's fine, just fill out this form, I'm gonna take a copy of these paper and we're done', she said.
It's all done and I called my mom on the way back to apartment. I asked her,'Mi saya ngambil komunikasi bener kan ya? Ndapapa kan ya? Itu tadi koko and cece di agentnya bilang saya kok tidak ambil master business aja karena nilai2 saya memenuhi syarat semua?'. She answered,' Kamu sukanya apa Cin, kalau emang suka Communications ya ndapapa kok, dulu kamu kan juga ada keinginan ambil itu sebenarnya. Sudah ndapapa, jadi sekarang tinggal menunggu kabar dari mereka atau uninya ya? Perlu tes IELTS lagi apa tidak kamu?'. 'Iyaa, bisa tahunya perlu tes lagi n urus visa studentnya nanti setelah ada pernyataan dari 2 uni itu saya keterima atau tidak.', jawabku.
Next week, my agent called and asked me to come to the office if I have time. Disitu dia memberi tahu bahwa untuk master degree, beberapa universitas mengharuskan student2 untuk menulis sebuah essay pendek yang berisi mengapa mereka memilih jurusan master itu and mengapa apply di uni tersebut. Kebetulan, 2 uni yang saya apply ini meminta essay tersebut.
I thought,' Oh nooo, sudah lama banget nda nulis essay nih, mateng cara buatnya aja lupa gimana'. Plus ditambah karena sudah kurang lebih 2 tahun tidak melakukan hal-hal berbau sekolah, jadi ada bumbu2 kemalasan yang menyerang juga,ahahhaha.. Sungguhan lho tapi, saya kan diminta menulisnya secepat mungkin, tapi akhirnya secara saya orang yang cukup pelupa, ada kerjaan plus hal-hal lain yang harus dirurus juga, saya akhirnya tidak mengerjakannya selama sebulan.
However, there was a funny thing happened. I remember exactly saat saya membuka microsoft words untuk mulai menulis essay itu, saya juga membuka new tab google chrome untuk check email. Dan tiba-tiba ada notification email yang masuk, dari salah 1 uni tersebut yang berkata bahwa saya diterima. I was surprised since saya belum menulis dan mengirim essay yang dia minta. Hari-hari berikutnya, the agent called me and said bahwa saya mendapat offer letter untuk uni 1nya yang saya juga apply.
On my days off, saya datang ke kantor agent tersebut untuk membahas apa yang harus saya lakukan berikutnya. I asked her, why I got accepted, karena saya sama sekali belum menulis dan mengirim essay yang mereka minta. She did not know also why, she just got an email that I got accepted already so there was no need to write an essay. She said again,' Another good news is you don't need to re-take IELTS test, they still accepted your last score. This is quite rarely happening, good on you Cindy!'. I was like OMOO!!! Hahhahahhaha.. Seneng bangetttt tidak perlu tes IELTS lagi. Langsung deh saya telpon mami untuk menceritakan tentang semua ini,hehehhhe..
Saya lalu meminta waktu kurang lebih seminggu untuk lebih mempelajari 2 uni ini agar dapat menentukan pilihan. Kembali saya membedakan antara Uni Melbourne dan Sydney ini dari segi course dan subject yang mereka tawarkan, durasi lama pengajarannya, dan tentu saja mana yang memiliki peringkat lebih tinggi. Saya semakin gencar melakukan research dan meminta pendapat orang-orang. Setelah menimbang-nimbang, ternyata hampir semua dari checklist yang saya miliki, uni yang berada di Sydney memiliki nilai yang lebih baik.
Di hari off saya berikutnya, saya datang ke kantor agent pendidikan itu dan mengatakan pilihan saya. She said it was a correct choice to make. I need to fill out 1 more form to confirm my decision then that was it! I am done!! The rest was just student visa, health test, and insurance. It took months and months to get it done. Thanks God semuanya berjalan lancar.
- Just an addition information, mengurus visa student memakan waktu yang cukup lama dan saya sudah mulai mengurusnya jauh sebelum sekolah saya mulai karena saya harus pulang Indo sebentar dan visa TR yang saya miliki akan habis dalam waktu dekat. Pengajuan student visa saya sempat ditolak dan setelah ditelusuri ternyata ada beberapa kesalahan. Di dalam proses apply student visa itu, saya harus berada di Australia, tidak boleh keluar dari negeri itu. Jadi jika sampai tanggal kepulangan saya ke Indo visa itu tetap belum keluar, tiket pesawat saya akan hangus dan sia2 (I bought the ticket long time ago before I knew this whole Master situation would happen to me).
- Terkadang perasaan bingung itu muncul, khawatir harus berbuat apa jika student visa saya tidak keluar juga di hari kepulangan saya ke Indo. Saya juga harus memberikan update visa baru di tempat kerja, my TR (Temporary Resident) visa will be expired in a few weeks. Sampai 2 minggu sebelum kepulangan saya ke Indo, visa itu belum juga keluar. Oh noooo.. Nevertheless, every night when I prayed, this heart was just had an assurance that everything will be alright and just on time.
- Dan kalian tahu, 2 hari sebelum TR visa saya expired, 1 minggu sebelum tanggal keberangkatan saya ke Surabaya, sore harinya, akhirnya visa saya di approved oleh imigrasi. PRAISE THE LORD!!! Langsung saya print dan masukkan ke tas kecil yang akan saya bawa di airport nanti.. EVERYTHING JUST HAPPENED ON TIME PEOPLE, uhuyyyyy.. :):)
* Back in the present time, I just finished my Orientation Week. Today, my 1st class will start. Nervous juga nih, deg2an salting sendiri,hahhahaha.. My family is here also at the moment, jadi sebelum kelas di malam hari (Master kelasnya banyak yang malam), saya menemani mereka dulu.. Kerjaan sementara minta ijin dulu untuk break, 2 minggu lagi baru akan mulai lagi.. Moga2 semua dapat berjalan dengan baik dan seimbang ya guys.. :)
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Hari-hari setelah pengurusan Master, visa, dan health check itu selesai, saya sering bertanya 1 hal pada waktu berdoa di malam hari.. I ask God why suddenly out of nowhere I have an urge to continue my study? Karena tidak pernah keinginan seperti itu muncul sebelumnya..
Days passed by, I kept asking same question every night. And again, when I sat alone in my bedroom in my apartment, at night, before I went to sleep, inside my heart, I could feel it, whether you believe it or not, there was a small tiny little voice saying :
"Once, there was a little girl saying that she wanted to experience a normal uni-life. She was telling herself and other people that she wanted to wear casual shirt, carrying small backpack on her back, as well as books in her hands. She imagined this to be included in her youth life long time ago, and what I did now is just fulfilling her wish.".
Saya terdiam. I was out of words for a while before I said, 'THAT GIRL WAS ME'.
My past memories came back in a flash.
I remember when I was in my dormitory, when I took my 1st degree in Blue Mountains Hotel School, THERE WAS A TIME when I told myself and some of my closest friends, that I would like to experience normal uni life. Di hotel school, kalian harus mengenakan seragam dan harus rapi setiap saat dari ujung kepala hingga kaki. Dari kecil sekali, saya selalu membayangkan jika saya kuliah nanti, saya akan mengenakan baju bebas, di tempat perkuliahan yang besar, makan di kantin bersama teman-teman, belajar di perpustakaan yang besar sambil membawa laptop dan buku-buku. Yah maklum mungkin sering nonton sinetron remaja dulu waktu kecil,hahahahahha..
Sebenarnya, saya sama sekali tidak memandang keinginan itu sebagai sesuatu yang serius.. I was just saying randomly that I would love to experience those kinds of things.. I'm just saying, that's it.. Setelah itu, selama bertahun-tahun, saya tidak pernah menyebutkan itu lagi sama sekali, bahkan saya LUPA saya pernah menginginkan hal tersebut..
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Has it ever happened to you?
- How you have a WISH, that even you actually DON'T consider it as something important, you FORGET about it, then after few/many years, u eventually got it UNEXPECTEDLY and SURPRISINGLY, IT FEELS RIGHT, JUST ON TIME?
Dear friends, what I learn from my experience are :
It's all done and I called my mom on the way back to apartment. I asked her,'Mi saya ngambil komunikasi bener kan ya? Ndapapa kan ya? Itu tadi koko and cece di agentnya bilang saya kok tidak ambil master business aja karena nilai2 saya memenuhi syarat semua?'. She answered,' Kamu sukanya apa Cin, kalau emang suka Communications ya ndapapa kok, dulu kamu kan juga ada keinginan ambil itu sebenarnya. Sudah ndapapa, jadi sekarang tinggal menunggu kabar dari mereka atau uninya ya? Perlu tes IELTS lagi apa tidak kamu?'. 'Iyaa, bisa tahunya perlu tes lagi n urus visa studentnya nanti setelah ada pernyataan dari 2 uni itu saya keterima atau tidak.', jawabku.
Next week, my agent called and asked me to come to the office if I have time. Disitu dia memberi tahu bahwa untuk master degree, beberapa universitas mengharuskan student2 untuk menulis sebuah essay pendek yang berisi mengapa mereka memilih jurusan master itu and mengapa apply di uni tersebut. Kebetulan, 2 uni yang saya apply ini meminta essay tersebut.
I thought,' Oh nooo, sudah lama banget nda nulis essay nih, mateng cara buatnya aja lupa gimana'. Plus ditambah karena sudah kurang lebih 2 tahun tidak melakukan hal-hal berbau sekolah, jadi ada bumbu2 kemalasan yang menyerang juga,ahahhaha.. Sungguhan lho tapi, saya kan diminta menulisnya secepat mungkin, tapi akhirnya secara saya orang yang cukup pelupa, ada kerjaan plus hal-hal lain yang harus dirurus juga, saya akhirnya tidak mengerjakannya selama sebulan.
However, there was a funny thing happened. I remember exactly saat saya membuka microsoft words untuk mulai menulis essay itu, saya juga membuka new tab google chrome untuk check email. Dan tiba-tiba ada notification email yang masuk, dari salah 1 uni tersebut yang berkata bahwa saya diterima. I was surprised since saya belum menulis dan mengirim essay yang dia minta. Hari-hari berikutnya, the agent called me and said bahwa saya mendapat offer letter untuk uni 1nya yang saya juga apply.
On my days off, saya datang ke kantor agent tersebut untuk membahas apa yang harus saya lakukan berikutnya. I asked her, why I got accepted, karena saya sama sekali belum menulis dan mengirim essay yang mereka minta. She did not know also why, she just got an email that I got accepted already so there was no need to write an essay. She said again,' Another good news is you don't need to re-take IELTS test, they still accepted your last score. This is quite rarely happening, good on you Cindy!'. I was like OMOO!!! Hahhahahhaha.. Seneng bangetttt tidak perlu tes IELTS lagi. Langsung deh saya telpon mami untuk menceritakan tentang semua ini,hehehhhe..
Saya lalu meminta waktu kurang lebih seminggu untuk lebih mempelajari 2 uni ini agar dapat menentukan pilihan. Kembali saya membedakan antara Uni Melbourne dan Sydney ini dari segi course dan subject yang mereka tawarkan, durasi lama pengajarannya, dan tentu saja mana yang memiliki peringkat lebih tinggi. Saya semakin gencar melakukan research dan meminta pendapat orang-orang. Setelah menimbang-nimbang, ternyata hampir semua dari checklist yang saya miliki, uni yang berada di Sydney memiliki nilai yang lebih baik.
Di hari off saya berikutnya, saya datang ke kantor agent pendidikan itu dan mengatakan pilihan saya. She said it was a correct choice to make. I need to fill out 1 more form to confirm my decision then that was it! I am done!! The rest was just student visa, health test, and insurance. It took months and months to get it done. Thanks God semuanya berjalan lancar.
- Just an addition information, mengurus visa student memakan waktu yang cukup lama dan saya sudah mulai mengurusnya jauh sebelum sekolah saya mulai karena saya harus pulang Indo sebentar dan visa TR yang saya miliki akan habis dalam waktu dekat. Pengajuan student visa saya sempat ditolak dan setelah ditelusuri ternyata ada beberapa kesalahan. Di dalam proses apply student visa itu, saya harus berada di Australia, tidak boleh keluar dari negeri itu. Jadi jika sampai tanggal kepulangan saya ke Indo visa itu tetap belum keluar, tiket pesawat saya akan hangus dan sia2 (I bought the ticket long time ago before I knew this whole Master situation would happen to me).
- Terkadang perasaan bingung itu muncul, khawatir harus berbuat apa jika student visa saya tidak keluar juga di hari kepulangan saya ke Indo. Saya juga harus memberikan update visa baru di tempat kerja, my TR (Temporary Resident) visa will be expired in a few weeks. Sampai 2 minggu sebelum kepulangan saya ke Indo, visa itu belum juga keluar. Oh noooo.. Nevertheless, every night when I prayed, this heart was just had an assurance that everything will be alright and just on time.
- Dan kalian tahu, 2 hari sebelum TR visa saya expired, 1 minggu sebelum tanggal keberangkatan saya ke Surabaya, sore harinya, akhirnya visa saya di approved oleh imigrasi. PRAISE THE LORD!!! Langsung saya print dan masukkan ke tas kecil yang akan saya bawa di airport nanti.. EVERYTHING JUST HAPPENED ON TIME PEOPLE, uhuyyyyy.. :):)
* Back in the present time, I just finished my Orientation Week. Today, my 1st class will start. Nervous juga nih, deg2an salting sendiri,hahhahaha.. My family is here also at the moment, jadi sebelum kelas di malam hari (Master kelasnya banyak yang malam), saya menemani mereka dulu.. Kerjaan sementara minta ijin dulu untuk break, 2 minggu lagi baru akan mulai lagi.. Moga2 semua dapat berjalan dengan baik dan seimbang ya guys.. :)
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Hari-hari setelah pengurusan Master, visa, dan health check itu selesai, saya sering bertanya 1 hal pada waktu berdoa di malam hari.. I ask God why suddenly out of nowhere I have an urge to continue my study? Karena tidak pernah keinginan seperti itu muncul sebelumnya..
Days passed by, I kept asking same question every night. And again, when I sat alone in my bedroom in my apartment, at night, before I went to sleep, inside my heart, I could feel it, whether you believe it or not, there was a small tiny little voice saying :
"Once, there was a little girl saying that she wanted to experience a normal uni-life. She was telling herself and other people that she wanted to wear casual shirt, carrying small backpack on her back, as well as books in her hands. She imagined this to be included in her youth life long time ago, and what I did now is just fulfilling her wish.".
Saya terdiam. I was out of words for a while before I said, 'THAT GIRL WAS ME'.
My past memories came back in a flash.
I remember when I was in my dormitory, when I took my 1st degree in Blue Mountains Hotel School, THERE WAS A TIME when I told myself and some of my closest friends, that I would like to experience normal uni life. Di hotel school, kalian harus mengenakan seragam dan harus rapi setiap saat dari ujung kepala hingga kaki. Dari kecil sekali, saya selalu membayangkan jika saya kuliah nanti, saya akan mengenakan baju bebas, di tempat perkuliahan yang besar, makan di kantin bersama teman-teman, belajar di perpustakaan yang besar sambil membawa laptop dan buku-buku. Yah maklum mungkin sering nonton sinetron remaja dulu waktu kecil,hahahahahha..
Sebenarnya, saya sama sekali tidak memandang keinginan itu sebagai sesuatu yang serius.. I was just saying randomly that I would love to experience those kinds of things.. I'm just saying, that's it.. Setelah itu, selama bertahun-tahun, saya tidak pernah menyebutkan itu lagi sama sekali, bahkan saya LUPA saya pernah menginginkan hal tersebut..
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Has it ever happened to you?
- How you have a WISH, that even you actually DON'T consider it as something important, you FORGET about it, then after few/many years, u eventually got it UNEXPECTEDLY and SURPRISINGLY, IT FEELS RIGHT, JUST ON TIME?
Dear friends, what I learn from my experience are :
- THERE ARE NO DREAMS WHICH ARE NOT IMPORTANT TO OUR CREATOR.
- EVEN YOU FORGET ABOUT YOUR OWN WISHES, HE DID NOT EVEN ONCE FORGET ABOUT IT.
Dengan lifestyle yang sibuk, terkadang dalam hidup ini, perspective, impian, dan kepercayaan diri yang kita miliki, bisa berubah.
Karena hal yang diinginkan/dimimpikan tidak kunjung datang, manusia punya kecenderungan untuk melupakan atau mengganti impiannya. Bahkan tanpa kita sadari, kita bisa melupakan impian kita sendiri karena waktu yang kita miliki sudah disita oleh kesibukan yang ada dalam keseharian.
Your confidence towards God and yourself can disappear slowly. Your expectation and faith decrease gradually.
It happened to me so many times. Even I know so many bible verses that can give me strength, I am a human too. I can fall and worry about so many things in my life.
What's gonna happen to me if I can't achieve it? What should I do next? How can I pass this challenges?
So many questions pop up randomly in my head in so many occasions. I believe you have experienced this kind of feeling too, right?
But God is good. Whatever it is, I'm gonna always declare that HE IS GOOD.
Based on my own story, once again He made me in awe.
Karena hal yang diinginkan/dimimpikan tidak kunjung datang, manusia punya kecenderungan untuk melupakan atau mengganti impiannya. Bahkan tanpa kita sadari, kita bisa melupakan impian kita sendiri karena waktu yang kita miliki sudah disita oleh kesibukan yang ada dalam keseharian.
Your confidence towards God and yourself can disappear slowly. Your expectation and faith decrease gradually.
It happened to me so many times. Even I know so many bible verses that can give me strength, I am a human too. I can fall and worry about so many things in my life.
What's gonna happen to me if I can't achieve it? What should I do next? How can I pass this challenges?
So many questions pop up randomly in my head in so many occasions. I believe you have experienced this kind of feeling too, right?
But God is good. Whatever it is, I'm gonna always declare that HE IS GOOD.
Based on my own story, once again He made me in awe.
- HOW CAN HE STILL MEMORIZE WHAT I SAID LONG TIME AGO?
- I ALWAYS THINK I AM THE OWNER OF MY DREAM, IF I FORGET, WHO ELSE GONNA REMEMBER IT? YET, HE PROVED ME WRONG, HE REMEMBERS EVEN THE TINY WISHES WHICH I CONSIDER NOT ESSENTIAL AT ALL.
I got 2 lessons..
- I AM NOT THE OWNER OF MY DREAMS.. HE PUTS THOSE DREAMS INSIDE ME.. HE IS THE OWNER AND HE IS ALSO THE ONE THAT WILL HELP ME ACHIEVE IT.
(Philippians 1: 6 = "For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus".)
2. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS SMALL DREAMS IN HIS DICTIONARY. IT'S JUST OUR MINDSET WHICH SAYING IT'S SMALL, IT'S USELESS, IT DOESN'T MAKES SENSE. NO, I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IN THOSE WORDS. IF HE CONSIDER WHAT I THOUGHT WAS TINY AS BIG THING, IT MEANS ALL MY LITTLE THINGS ARE BIG ALSO.
EVEN I HAVE THE SMALLEST FAITH, IF IT'S RIGHT, HE WILL NOTICE IT AND NOTHING WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE. EVEN I DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY LIKE THAT PERSON, IF I WORK HARD, HE WILL SEE IT AND OPEN THE DOORS WHICH NOONE CAN CLOSE. WHEN I CONSIDER MYSELF AS LOSER, HE CAME AND SAID YOU ARE MORE THAN A WINNER, YOU ARE THE APPLE OF MY EYES.
(Matthew 17 : 20 = "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”)
EVEN I JUST HAVE THOSE 5 BREADS AND 2 FISHES, HE STILL CAN MAKE BIG THING OUT OF IT..
+ THEN IF HE CONSIDER EVERYTHING WITHIN ME/YOU AS BIG AND IMPORTANT, WHY SAYING MY/YOUR DREAMS ARE SMALL ANYWAY? IF THE OWNER OF MY DREAM REGARD IT AS SUBSTANTIAL, YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY IT IS NOT SIGNIFICANT.
Many people will say that your dreams will not come to pass..
They will say it's not gonna happen..
They will say it's impossibe, it's hard to achieve..
Why sacrifice so many things to gain something that not yet happened or perhaps will not happen?
They will ask you to become realistic..
They will ask you to live this life like normal people..
And Ironically, usually the people who bring you down is the one that close to you.
I tell what you what I know :
- A DREAMER WILL ALWAYS BE 1 STEP AHEAD THAN A REALISTIC. NOTICE THAT EVERYTHING THAT THOSE PEOPLE SAID IMPOSSIBLE ONCE, A DREAMER CAN MAKE IT POSSIBLE NOW.
- A DREAMER HAS SOMETHING THAT A REALISTIC DON'T : IMAGINATION & VISION, WHICH CAN TAKE THEM BEYOND WHAT ALL PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD COULD THINK OR ACHIEVE..
Of course being a dreamer is not enough to make your dreams come true, it's the 1st step. You still need to believe in it and work hard. Believe in God and believe in yourself.
- BEING A DREAMER DOES NOT MEAN YOU ARE NOT REALISTIC. IT DOES NOT MEAN YOU ARE BLIND WITH REALITY. ON THE CONTRARY, YOU CAN MAKE BALANCE BETWEEN YOUR OWN FAITH AND FACT, THEN MAKE THE MOST OF IT.
If people give you advice or criticize you, accept it. Think, if it's right, then perhaps you need to change a little bit. Take it professionally, not personally. Remember that we have our blind sides also, we are not always 100% correct in everything..
Remember, THERE IS TIME FOR EVERYTHING.. THERE ARE SEASONS IN THIS LIFE..
I had written this in my past post years ago..
- You CANNOT JUDGE 1 life, BY ONLY 1 SEASON.
- The ESSENCE of who they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that
come from this life CAN ONLY BE MEASURED AT THE END, when ALL the seasons are UP.
*** If you give up when
it’s winter, you will miss the promise of your spring, the beauty of your
summer, fulfillment of your fall.
- Don’t
let the pain of ONE season destroy the joy of ALL the rest.
- Don’t
judge life by ONE difficult season.
- Persevere
through the difficult patches and better times are SURE TO COME some time
or later.
- NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS.
- IF IT HASN'T HAPPENED RIGHT NOW, DOES NOT MEAN IT WILL NOT HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE.
SOMETIMES, YOU NEED TO REFLECT ON YOURSELF,
- ASK QUESTION : HAVE YOU DOING THINGS RIGHT TO HELP YOU ACHIEVE THOSE DREAMS?
Apakah yang kamu sebenarnya sudah percaya bahwa kamu dapat mencapainya? Apakah yang kamu lakukan sekarang sudah sedikit demi sedikit mendekatkanmu ke arah impian tersebut?
- BE PATIENT.. EVERYTHING TAKES TIME.. YOU CAN'T BUILD A BEAUTIFUL HOUSE IN 1 DAY RIGHT?
- DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO NOW, WITH NOTE, DO SOMETHING THAT MAKE YOU CLOSER TO YOUR DREAMS TOO.. DO NOT NEGLECT IT..
- REMEMBER, IF THOSE DREAMS COME FROM GOD, I AM SURE WHATEVER YOU DO, EVEN IF YOU WANT TO, YOU JUST CANNOT LET IT GO.. EVEN ALL PEOPLE SAY YOU ARE CRAZY, AND YOU YOURSELF THINK YOU'RE CRAZY, YOU STILL CANNOT LET IT GO.. IT WILL STAY IN YOUR HEART ALWAYS AND ONE DAY YOU WILL GET IT IN THE CORRECT TIME..
- NEVER IN MY LIFE, NOT EVEN ONCE, I HAVE EVER THOUGHT I WOULD LIKE TO CONTINUE MY STUDY.. BIG NO!
- BUT NOW I REALIZE, TO REACH MY DREAMS, IT IS NECESSARY FOR ME TO TAKE IT.. AND MIRACULOUSLY, IT WAS LITERALLY CAME FROM MY OWN PERSONAL WISH (LONG TIME AGO) TO EXPERIENCE A NORMAL UNI LIFE. HE FULFILLED IT THROUGH THIS MASTER DEGREE..
- YOU WILL BE AMAZED HOW GOD CAN CHANGES THE ATTITUDE OF YOUR HEART SINCE SOMETIMES, TO ACHIEVE THOSE DREAMS, YOU NEED TO DO SOMETHING WHICH YOU DON'T WANT TO DO BEFORE..
- THERE IS NO FORCE WHATSOEVER INCLUDED IN MY DECISION TO TAKE THIS MASTER. IT'S PURELY MY CHOICE AND I AM ABSOLUTELY HAPPY ABOUT IT.
- SUDDENLY, I WAS INTERESTED IN IT.. SUDDENLY, I WANT TO STUDY AGAIN. AND SUDDENLY, IT FEELS SO RIGHT IN MY HEART WHEN I CHOOSE THIS MAJOR.
1. I could apply for the uni for free, no application charges etc.
2. When they see my score, they offered me a Master in Business Degree (it's a good thing for sure since if I can got accepted in business, I will most probably make it in other major too).
3. My IELTS score had expired already, but I didn't need to retake the test again when other people still need to.
4. I didn't make the essay that the uni required but I got accepted just like that.
5. I got my student visa only 2 days before my TR expired, isn't that insane?
*** I don't need any more proofs from Him to show me that this is the path which I need to walk into..
HIS WILL AND MINE ARE MATCH TOGETHER.. YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES ME MORE AMAZED? IT HAPPENS JUST IN THE CORRECT TIME. HOW WONDERFUL IS THAT?
Habakkuk 2: 2-3 =
2 And The Lord answered me:
“Write the vision;
make it plain on tablets,
so he may run who reads it.
3 For still THE VISION AWAIT ITS APPOINTED TIME;
it hastens to the end—IT WILL NOT LIE.
IF IT SEEMS SLOW, WAIT FOR IT;
IT WILL SURELY COME; it will not delay.
make it plain on tablets,
so he may run who reads it.
3 For still THE VISION AWAIT ITS APPOINTED TIME;
it hastens to the end—IT WILL NOT LIE.
IF IT SEEMS SLOW, WAIT FOR IT;
IT WILL SURELY COME; it will not delay.
Lastly, ponder to these sentences :
* What's the point to have imagination if you don't have a willingness to make it true? What's the point to have such vision if you don't believe that one day, it will come to pass?
* Why live this life normally, if you can live in extraordinary way? NORMAL IS TOO COMMON. You are unique. Beautiful in every single way, made by the hands of God. You are born to be different!
+ Many people live in this world, but not all of them trully alive. BE ALIVE THEN!!!. YOU ARE YOUNG AND FREE. THERE IS NO LIMIT IN WHAT YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH IN THIS WORLD.
## I PROUDLY DECLARE MYSELF AS A DREAMER. I MAKE WISH ON STARS, I AM A DREAMER AND I KNOW IT. PEOPLE ASK ME WHERE I AM GOING WITH THAT KIND OF DREAMS? I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NEXT, BUT I KNOW THIS. I AM CERTAIN THAT I AM GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. I PUT MY LIFE ALIGN WITH HIS WAY AND PURPOSE. SO ONE DAY, IF I BOAST IT'S GONNA BE FOR HIS GLORY. EVERYTHING'S WITHIN ME COMES FROM HIM AND IT WILL COME BACK TO HIM.. ##
Cast all your worries, all your concerns, all your dreams to Him. I have FAITH about this sentence which I always declare in my prayer. You can include it in your prayer too if you want :
"but God has SURELY listened and has heard my prayer". (Psalm 66:19)
Everything counts in Him. He knows me from the inside out. I know He is working right now. I just need to do my best at this very moment, be still, and see the salvation from THE LORD.. (Exodus 14:13A)
Regards,
Cindy
Kesaksian hidup yg luar biasa dalam mengejar impian, gw stuju banget kalo dlm mengejar mimpi kita gak bleh menyerah terlalu cepat.. Keren banget cin.. Gbu :)
ReplyDeleteCiiin, i'm sooo blessed with your story.. really! Keep writing ya, pasti byk org yg butuh dikuatkan lewat tulisanmu.. keep faithful ya, byk org yg akan dibangkitkan imannya lewat kesaksian2mu.. keep in faith dan smkn berbuah lebatttt :* Gbu
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