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Thursday, February 16, 2012

IT'S NOT ALWAYS.., BUT I CHOOSE TO BE ALWAYS..

Hi again.. I got many positive responses about my previous post and once again I wanna say THANK YOU SO MUCH.. You all really made my day.. :) In this post, I wanna talk about me myself actually.. Wanna share a little bit about 'me'.. Hahahhaha.. Sounds funny,eh? Hope you guys like it as well ya! Enjoy..

Seperti yang sudah saya tulis di post-post lama dulu, bagaimana kehidupan saya sebelumnya, dan bagaimana kehidupan saya sekarang setelah diubahkan dengan luar biasa oleh my Saviour Jesus Christ.. Aq ga nyangka banget lho God bisa pakai dan ubah aq sampai menjadi aq yang sekarang ini.. It's such a BLESSING.. and really ONLY BY HIS GRACE, I AM WHO I AM NOW.. I AM WHAT I AM NOW..

Setelah diubahkan oleh Tuhan, saya menjadi pribadi yang berbeda sekali dengan saya yang dlu.. Dan tidak jarang juga org berkata seperti ini : 'Waw cin, kamu kok bisa kaya gini sekarang? Wah Cin, kalau liat kamu, kayanya hidup kamu enak banget ya ga ada masalah? Cin, kamu kok rasanya jadi orang seneng terus ga pernah ada masalah gitu? Cin kamu tiap hari kok ceria banget sih, enak banget ya jd kamu? etc. Jika ada seorang yang berkata seperti itu, most of the time I replied them with smiling and said 'THANK YOU.. THANKS GOD FOR IT'.. However in here, I wanna share to u that my life is not always going well..

MY LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS GOING SMOOTH.. IT'S NOT GOOD ALL THE TIME LIKE WHAT YOU SEE.. THERE WAS A TIME I FELT SO DOWN AND I JUST WANTED TO GIVE UP.. I DID CRY SOMETIMES IF I FELT OVERWHELMED WITH MY SITUATION.. SAYA PERCAYA, ADA KALANYA TIAP ORANG MERASA DOWN, OLEH KARENA ITU KITA BUTUH SESEORANG YANG DAPAT MENGUATKAN.. BUTUH SESEORANG UNTUK MENDENGARKAN DAN ADA DISAMPING KITA SEHINGGA KITA MERASA TIDAK SENDIRI.. BUTUH SESEORANG UNTUK MENDUKUNG.. THANKS GOD ONCE AGAIN.. I HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL FAMILY AND FRIENDS..

Jika saya lagi merasa down, atau sedang ada masalah, saya terkadang memilih untuk sendiri.. Saya bisa dikatakan tipe orang yang jarang cerita juga kepada orang lain..  I BELIEVE THAT EVERY PERSON NEEDS TIME FOR HIM/HERSELF.. ADA KALANYA TIAP ORANG BUTUH WAKTU UNTUK SENDIRI TANPA GANGGUAN APAPUN DAN DARI SIAPAPUN.. FOR ME, I CHOOSE TO BE ALONE, AND SOMETIMES I GO TO MY BATHROOM, CLOSE THE DOOR, JUST SINGING THERE.. U WONT BELIEVE IT RIGHT? BUT YES! I DID IT A LOT.. I STAND THERE WITH MY IPOD AND JUST WORSHIP HIM.. AFTER I WORSHIP HIM, I JUST PRAYED.. I PRAYED.. I TOLD HIM ALL MY PROBLEMS, ALL MY BURDENS.. AND USUALLY AT THAT TIME, I CRIED.. 

I REALIZE THAT I'M ONLY HUMAN, I HAVE SO MANY WEAKNESSES AND I HAVE LIMIT.. BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY, WHEN I FINISHED PRAYING, I FELT GOOD AGAIN AND I CAN SMILE.. WOHOO!! THE POWER OF PRAYER IS HUGE GUYS!!

Sejak saya di dalam Tuhan dan sejak Dia di dalam saya, if there are difficulties that I must face in this life, I remind myself of these words a lot :

1. 'FOR MY GOD CREATED MY INMOST BEING, HE KNIT ME TOGETHER IN MY MOTHER'S WOMB.. I AM WONDERFULLY MADE.. HIS WORKS ARE WONDERFUL' = Tuhan yang sudah mengenal saya sejak di dalam kandungan, tidak akan pernah meninggalkan saya dalam kondisi apapun.. He's gonna be with me always in all circumstances.. WE ARE HIS MASTERPIECE, REMEMBER THAT :)  (PSALMS 139:13-14)

2. 'I HAVE TOLD YOU THESE THINGS, SO THAT IN ME YOU FIND PEACE. IN THIS WORLD YOU WILL HAVE TROUBLE, BUT TAKE HEART! I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD' = Tuhan sebelumnya sudah berkata bahwa di dunia ini, pasti ada suatu masalah, but He continued : REJOICE!!! Tuhan yang telah mati dan bangkit untuk saya, sekali lagi tidak akan pernah meninggalkan saya, terutama pada saat dimana saya paling membutuhkan Dia.. IN HIS PRESENCE ONLY, I CAN GAIN A PEACEFUL HEART AGAIN.. (JOHN 16:33)

3. 'MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU. FOR MY POWER IS MADE PERFECT IN WEAKNESS, SO THAT CHRIST'S POWER MAY DWELL IN ME' = Tuhan saya, yang telah memberikan keselamatan, mengatakan dengan jelas disini bahwa kasihnya lebih dari cukup untuk mengatasi semuanya.. When we are weak, we can learn to DEPEND ON HIM MORE AND MORE.. DISAAT SY LEMAH, KEKUATAN TUHAN BEKERJA SECARA SEMPURNA DAN MEMBUAT SAYA SEMAKIN MERASAKAN PENYERTAANNYA.. DI SAAT SAYA LEMAH, DIA SELALU ADA, MEMBERI KEKUATAN PADA SAYA UNTUK BERDIRI LAGI.. 'LET ME DECREASE, BUT HE ALWAYS INCREASES IN ME' (2 CORINTHIANS 12: 7-9)

4. ...'NEVER WILL I LEAVE YOU, NEVER WILL I FORSAKE YOU' = Dengan sejelas2nya disini God menekankan bahwa Dia tidak akan pernah meninggalkan kita.. Then why sometimes we still doubt Him? He's with you.. What you need to do is just open your heart, LET GO, LET GOD WORKS, THEN LET'S GO.. START FROM THE BEGINNING AGAIN.. (HEBREWS 13:5)

5. 'I WILL NOT LEAVE YOU COMFORTLESS.. I WILL COME TO YOU' = Tuhan tidak akan pernah meninggalkan kita dalam keadaan sengsara.. Whenever I pray, I can feel that He told me to be strong.. He told me that EVERYTHING IS JUST A PROCESS.. FOR OUR OWN GOOD.. THIS PROBLEMS ONLY FOR A WHILE BECAUSE I KNOW , THESE TOO WILL PASS..  (JOHN 14:18)

6. 'DO NOT BE AFRAID FOR I AM WITH YOU. DO NOT BE DISCOURAGED FOR I AM YOUR GOD. I WILL STRENGTHEN YOU AND HELP YOU. I WILL HOLD YOU UP WITH MY VICTORIOUS RIGHT HAND' = Do you still need an explanation for these words? My God.. Our God is able and greater than other things.. IF GOD IS WITH US, WHO CAN STAND AGAINST US? (ISAIAH 41:10)

** Mungkin sebagai penutup, ini yg paling cocok dan merupakan ayat favorit saya juga :

7. 'I CONSIDER THAT OUR PRESENT SUFFERINGS ARE NOT WORTH COMPARING WITH THE GLORY THAT WILL BE REVEALED IN US' = BE CONTENT IN EVERY CIRCUMSTANCES.. STAY ON UR PRINCIPLE.. SEBUAH PRINSIP, SAMA SEKALI TIDAK TERPENGARUH DENGAN KEADAAN DAN LINGKUNGAN.. DO NOT BE THE FOLLOWER OF WORLD'S LIFESTYLE.. SHOW THEM BY BECOMING A CHRIST'S FOLLOWER, EVEN YOU FACE A LOT HARDSHIPS IN YOUR LIFE, YOU STILL SMILE AND BE HAPPY BECAUSE YOU KNOW IF YOU HOLD ON TO UR FAITH ALWAYS AND ALWAYS, EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT IN THE END.. EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE JUST FINE.. GOD SAID 'WE ARE MORE THAN A WINNER' AND WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.. I like this phrase so much : ' I DON'T NEED EASY, I NEED POSSIBLE'.. WITH GOD, YOU CAN ACHIEVE ALL THINGS.. (ROME 8:18)

Banyak banget ayat2 yang membuktikan bagaimana Tuhan selalu menguatkan dan tidak pernah meninggalkan kita, tapi kalau ditulis satu-satu bisa-bisa ga slesai ni postnya, ga cukup,hahahahhaha.. UNTIL THIS TIME, I STILL AMAZED.. GOD IS JUST SO GOOD TO ME AND YOU LHO!! HOW PROUD I AM TO HAVE A GOD LIKE HIM.. :)

*** NOW YOU KNOW THAT MY LIFE IS NOT 24/7 HAPPY.. NOT 24/7 SMOOTH... NOT 24/7 WELL.. BUT IT'S MY CHOICE THAT DETERMINES ME.. IN SPITE OF ANYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN MY LIFE NOW, GOOD/BAD, HAPPY/SAD, I CHOOSE TO BE GRATEFUL ALWAYS.. I CHOOSE TO SURRENDER ALL TO HIM.. I CHOOSE TO STILL SMILING AND SAY : THANKS GOD.. I KNOW THAT I PUT MY HOPE, MY FAITH, MY HAPPINESS, MY PROBLEMS, MY FUTURE, MY DREAMS IN THE RIGHT HAND.. HE NEVER EVER LEAVE ME, NOT EVEN ONCE.. HE IS QUITE SOMETIMES, BUT NEVER ABSENT IN MY LIFE.. HE'S ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.. 

IN THE END, ALL THE POWER HE GAVE ME, THE GRACE HE GAVE ME, THE LOVE HE GAVE ME, IT'S ENOUGH FOR ME TO FACE ALL THE CHALLENGES IN THIS WORLD.. TO SOLVE ALL MY PROBLEMS.. TO AGAINST ALL ODDS.. WOW!! THEREFORE, IT IS TOTALLY.. TOTALLY MY JOY TO HONOR HIM.. I'M JUST SO HAPPY TO HAVE A CHANCE TO SERVE HIM THROUGH MY LIFE.. HE ACCEPTS ME JUST THE WAY I AM.. WHAT A GREAT LOVE! CAN U IMAGINE THAT? NOTHING COMPARES TO GOD'S GRACE THAT RESCUED ME ONCE AND FOREVER.. 

** BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING, BUT IN EVERYTHING BY PRAYER AND SUPPLICATION WITH THANKSGIVING LET YOUR REQUEST BE MADE KNOWN TO GOD (PHILLIPIANS 4:6-8)

Regards, Cindy

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

UNTITLED

Hiii peepppssss.. Sori bngt baru isa update lg, soalnya tugas2 udh mulai banyak nih disini, ditambah dengan kesibukan lain.. Nih pas di hari Valentine ini, ga brp sibuk, jd ya udh deh update post aja.. Hehehhehe.. How are you guys? Smua lg pada ngrayain Valday ya? Oya nih blm ucapin, Happyyyyy Valdayyy to allll of uuuu yaaaa :):):) Yuk spread a lotta love in this world.. Di post kali ini, aq mau bahas tentang LOVE ya tmn2.. Enjoy!

To begin with, just wanna ask a simple question to all of u? Hari ini udh pada ucapin I LOVE U blm ke ortu? hayooooo.. hehehehehe.. Coba ya tmn2, bertepatan dengan hari Valentine ini.. Kalian yg malu atau merasa risih mengungkapkan kasih sayang ke ortu, yuk cb pelan2 ngmng ke mereka.. I bet they will surprise lho!! Hehheheehhe.. Just a simple I LOVE U MOM/DAD/BRO/SIS can mean a lot for them.. Remember what I said long time ago.. SOMETIMES, A FEELING CAN'T BE UNDERSTOOD UNTIL IT SPOKEN.. Meskipun terkadang action memang lebih punya arti yang besar jika dibandingkan dengan kata2, tp bukankah jauh lebih baik jika ACTION+WORDS ? Mngkn ada bbrp dr kalian yg merasa, ah dr perbuatanq mama papa pst tau aq sayang mereka. Yes they did! But, it will be worth MORE if u say it as well.. WHEN U STILL HAVE A CHANCE TO SAY IT, SAY IT.. WHEN U STILL HAVE A CHANCE TO MAKE THEM SMILE, DO IT.. WHEN U STILL HAVE A CHANCE TO SHOW THEM UR LOVE, PROVE IT.. Mungkin juga ada bbrp dari kalian yg ga terlalu dekat dengan org tua, yukk cb pelan2 blg i love u ke mereka.. WHO KNOWS? Hanya dengan mengucapkan kata2 sayang kalian, hubungan kalian dari hari ke hari akan dapat bertambah baik.. JANGAN MENUNGGU MEREKA BILANG SAYANG BARU KALIAN BILANG SAYANG YA.. TAKE THE INITIATIVE FIRST.. TAKE THE 1ST STEP FIRST.. IF YOU CAN SAY IT FIRST, WHY YOU HAVE TO WAIT? IS IT BECAUSE OF PRIDE? Yuk ayukk kesampingkan dulu gengsi kalian semua.. Ama ortu sendiri masa malu2 kucing? hahahhahah..

** LOVE IS SO AMAZING.. LOVE SO DIVINE.. ME MYSELF, EVEN CAN NOT IMAGINE SOMETIMES HOW LOVE CAN CHANGE HUMAN'S LIFE.. HOW LOVE CAN TRANSFORM PEOPLE IN BETTER WAY.. IT IS CLEARLY SAID IN BIBLE : LOVE IS THE GREATEST THING AMONG ALL.. WOW!!!! IF U TRULY LOVE SOMEONE, THERE IS NO WORD 'IF' IN UR DICTIONARY.. LOVE IS PURE.. IT'S ABOUT GIVING AND EXPECT NOTHING IN RETURN..

Yg diatas tentang ortu, sekarang tentang teman.. Hehehhehe.. Udh blg blm ke tmn2 terbaik dan terdekat kalian bahwa kalian mengasihi mereka semua dan bersyukur bisa berteman dengan mereka?? Kalo blm, yuk kasi ucapan ke mereka.. Just simply text them or maybe send msg in fb, tell them like : Happy Valday! Grateful to have u as my fren.. Thank u for being a good friend of mine.. Appreciate that a lot.. Udh cuma simple gt aja.. Untuk bbrp org, sy percaya, mskpn ini hanya sekedar ucapan simple, tp bisa berarti banget lho.. Mrk mngkn jg bisa kaget, wow, ada apa nih dengan si A kok tau2 krm msg sprt gini? From that time, they can see that GOD'S LOVE IS IN U AND U SHOW THEM THE EXAMPLE U GOT FROM CHRIST.. WHAT'S THE POINT TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE THAT NICE TO U? DARE URSELF TO BE DIFFERENT.. STEPPING OUT FROM UR COMFORT ZONE.. TRY TO BE NICE TO EVERYONE EVEN THEY TREAT U BADLY.. Terlepas dari mrk baik atau pernah jahat sama km, STILL, show them about what TRUE LOVE MEANS.. LOVE IS ABOUT FORGIVING TOO, right? Meskipun mrk pernah berlaku jahat sama kalian, tp drsitu kalian terbentuk menjadi pribadi yg luar biasa.. Pasti, paling tidak ada 1 hal yg meskipun dolu membuat km sakit hati, tp karena hal tersebut sekarang km menjadi seseorang yang lebih baik..


EVERYTHING IS A PROCESS THAT GOD LET IT HAPPEN IN OUR LIFE TO MAKE US A BETTER PERSON.. GOD'S WAY IS NOT OUR WAY.. HE WILL MAKE EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL ACCORDING TO HIS TIME.. Dan mngkn juga karena kejadian negatif yg terjadi pada kalian, GOD WANNA SHOW U WHICH ONE IS UR TRUE FRIEND.. WHICH FRIEND IS THE ONE THAT WILL STAND BESIDE U NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN.. GOD'S WAY IS JUST BEYOND AND SO MUCH BETTER IN THE END.. ISN'T IT?

Sekarang, nih mngkn topik yg ditunggu2 ya,hahahhaha.. Untuk kalian semua yg udh pny pacar, maupun yg blm pny pcr,hehehehhehe.. Bagi yg udh punya pacar, jng lupa show ke ur bf/gf how u reallyyyy grateful to have someone that care for u, understand u just the way u are, waiting for u at night until u finish ur work, respect u, to have someone to talk with if u have problem, share ur happiness/sadness.. Once again, WOW!!! LOVE IS JUST SO GREAT YA TEMAN TEMAN.. BF/GF IS ONE OF THE PRECIOUS GIFTS FROM OUR GOD.. Bagi yang belum punya dan udh kepingin, yuk dibw dlm doa.. BUT NEVER PUSH GOD.. I BELIEVE THAT GOD HAS ALREADY HAD THE BEST PLAN FOR U.. THE BEST PERSON FOR U.. WAIT WAIT AND WAIT.. WAIT FOR THE BEST.. Ga perlu terburu-buru.. Nanti kalo salah pilih tambah ga enk lho, hayo.. Hahahhahahha :D Karena untuk memulai suatu hubungan, dimulai komitmen yg sangat kuat dan harus dibangun dengan fondasi yg benar, IN CHRIST OF COURSE.. Jangan hanya karena tertarik karena penampilan luar, atau karena dia baik, perhatian, pintar, etc.. LOVE IS NOT A TEMPORARY FEELING.. LOVE IS NOT, AND WILL NEVER BECOME A GAME.. IF LOVE CAN GIVES BIG EFFECT IN SOMEONE'S LIFE, CAN U IMAGINE HOW LOVE CAN ALSO DESTROY HIS/HER LIFE IF U USE IT FOR WRONG/BAD PURPOSE? Cb kalian bertanya pada diri kalian dlu, apakah sy udh dapat dikatakan siap untuk memulai suatu hubungan yg serius? Apakah dengan saya bersama dia, sy dapat menjadi org yg lebih baik? Apakah sy siap membangun sebuah komitmen bersama dia? Apakah yg saya rasakan ini sungguh sebuah LOVE yg dikatakan sangat kuat sehingga dapat mengatasi perbedaan yg ada, atau hanya sebuah rasa tertarik karena alasan tertentu? 

SEBUAH HUBUNGAN YANG BAIK ITU JUGA PASTI SELALU DILANDASI DENGAN MOTIVASI YANG BENAR, MEMILIKI FONDASI BENAR, SERTA DAPAT MEMBAWA KITA KE JALAN YANG LEBIH BENAR.. That's why, to find the right one, we also need TIME.. TO GET TO KNOW HIM/HER.. HIS/HER FAMILY.. HOW HE/SHE TREAT OTHER PEOPLE.. Just an advice ya teman2, carilah org yg mempunyai iman yg sama dengan yg km pny saat ini.. IN CHRIST ALONE.. SO, U CAN GLORIFY HIM MORE AND MORE IN UR TOGETHERNESS, WHICH IS FOR ME... THIS CATEGORY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE..

*** I WANNA SAY THIS TO....... :

1. JESUS CHRIST : MY ONLY SAVIOUR.. MY GOD AND MY HEALER.. MY ROCK.. WITHOUT HIM, I AM TOTALLY NOTHING.. WITH HIM, I AM SOMEBODY.. BECAUSE OF HIM, I BECOME WHAT I AM NOW.. SINCE I KNEW HIM FROM THE START YEARS AGO, I HAVE DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE ABOUT LIFE AND PEOPLE.. HE CHANGED ME INSIDE AND OUTSIDE.. ALL THAT I HAVE NOW, IT'S ALL FOR HIM.. MY ONLY DESIRE IS TO EXALT HIM EVEN MORE AND MORE DAY BY DAYS.. WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW GRATEFUL I AM TO HAVE HIM IN MY LIFE.. IT'S THE GREATEST BLESSING EVER, THE GREATEST GIVE THAT I HAVE EVER HAD, THINGS THAT THE WORLD WILL NOT TAKE, THINGS THAT THIS WORLD CAN NOT OFFER EVEN JUST ONCE FOR ME = GOD'S MERCY, GRACE, AND UNENDING LOVE... GOD IS LOVE.. THANK YOU JESUS FOR SAVING ME..

2. MY FAMILY : THANK YOU FOR BEING THE BEST FAMILY.. THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT THAT U GAVE ME.. THANK U FOR RAISING ME.. I AM, WHO I AM NOW, IT'S ALSO BECAUSE OF MY FAMILY, ESPECIALLY OF COURSE MY MOM.. THANK YOU THANK YOU AND THANK YOU.. THANK YOU FOR TRUSTING ME, PRAY FOR ME, WAITING FOR ME, UNDERSTAND ME, GIVE ME ADVICE.. THANK YOU FOR MY DAD N BRO WHO ALWAYS PROTECT ME.. MAKE ME HAPPY AND LAUGH.. ACCOMPANY ME.. THANK YOU ALSO FOR MY GRANDPA AND GRANDMA.. I REALLY LOVE TO SPEND MY TIME WITH YOU TWO.. OH, HOW I WISH I COULD BE THERE WITH YOU NOW.. ALL OF YOU IS SO IMPORTANT FOR ME.. I LOVE YOU.. I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD..

3. MY BEST FRIENDS :  I BELIEVE U KNOW WHO YOU ARE.. IT'S BEEN SUCH A GREAT BLESSING TO KNOW YOU.. YOU MAKE ME HAPPY.. ACCOMPANY ME.. EVEN JUST FOR WATCHING MOVIE, EATING, CHATTING, BBM-ING.. I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IT REALLY MEANS A LOT FOR ME.. TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK, TO HAVE SOMEONE THAT ENCOURAGE ME, TO HAVE SOMEONE THAT REMINDS ME, TO HAVE SOMEONE THAT JUST ACCEPTS ME THE WAY I AM.. I WANNA SAY THANK YOU FOR ALL THE TIMES THAT U SPARE FOR ME.. THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME BECOME A GREATER PERSON.. I HOPE I CAN GIVE POSITIVE IMPACT TO ALL OF YOU.. I LOVE U DEARLY.. 'A TRUE FRIEND LOVES AT ALL TIME'.. LET'S GLORIFY GOD TOGETHER.. JUST BECAUSE OF HIM, BECAUSE OF HIS PLAN, I CAN HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KNOW YOU INSIDE AND OUTSIDE.. THANK YOU..

** THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU IN FACT.. I CAN NOT MENTION ONE BY ONE HERE.. BUT DEEPLY INSIDE, I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT GOD PUT MANY WONDERFUL PEOPLE THAT CAN TEACH ME A LOT OF THINGS.. TO SOME OF YOU THAT TAUGHT ME TO LOVE IN A BETTER WAY.. TO BE MORE MATURE IN 'LOVE'.. TO BE MORE MATURE IN THIS LIFE.. TO BECOME STRONGER AND STRONGER WHEN FACING OBSTACLES.. I WILL BE FOREVER AND ALWAYS BE THANKFUL FOR HIS KINDNESS THAT LET ME HAVE ALL OF U BY MY SIDE.. THANK YOU................

Regards, Cindy