End of 2014, beginning of 2015

Hi everyone!!!

Firstly, I wanna greeting you all with HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Hopefully this year is a better year ya.. I know it's 2 months late already and I'm sorry for it.. But better late than never right? Hehehhe..

Sejak kepulangan saya ke Indo hingga sekarang, ada saja banyak hal yang harus dikerjakan.. I thought I could at least wrote a new post at night but the result was : I was too exhausted.. Jadi setiap sampai rumah, saya cuma buka laptop sebentar untuk check email dll lalu langsung tertidur..

Jadi disini, saya mau memberikan sedikit update mengenai apa yang terjadi di bulan2 terakhir saya di tahun 2014 kemarin..

Enjoy reading guys :)
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I'm gonna share the good news that some of you perhaps knew already :

Guess what??? I GOT ENGAGED!!!!!!! :)

Kepulangan saya December kemarin ini termasuk yang paling lama jika dibandingkan dengan liburan2 saya ke Indonesia sebelumya..

From my university, liburnya sendiri saja sebenarnya dari December-akhir February lho.. Tapi karena saya tidak bisa terlalu lama meniggalkan Sydney dikarenakan pekerjaan juga, akhirnya awal February saya memutuskan untuk kembali terlebih dahulu..

Selama di Surabaya, banyak sekali hal-hal yang harus saya persiapkan untuk mengurus acara engagement tersebut.. Namun puji Tuhan berkat bantuan keluarga, khususnya mami of course dan pihak2 lainnya, acara tersebut akhirnya berjalan dengan lancar dari awal sampai akhir..

Mami sudah membantu menguruskan berbulan2 sebelum kepulangan saya ke Surabaya.. Namun I told her that I will make every decision.. Jadi sehari setelah saya mendarat di Sby, hari2 saya langsung dipenuhi bertemu dengan orang2 decor, kue, EO, baju, dan banyak lainnya..

Untuk dekornya sendiri, saya diberikan banyak sekali pilihan, tapi semua tidak ada yang cocok.. Saya tidak mau acara engagement tersebut terkesan sangat 'chinese'. I want it to be simple, yet classy n modern..

Saya bersyukur sekali mami dan mama Aris memberikan saya kebebasan untuk menentukan decor yang saya mau.. So, months before I got back to Surabaya, I did some researches.. Dan ketika saya bertemu dengan orang decornya, saya mengajukan design yang saya mau.. Design itu sendiri tidak pernah dipake oleh orang di Surabaya sebelumnya..

Warna themes dari engagement itu sendiri bukanlah merah seperti orang pada umumnya.. Awalnya, saya tidak ingin sama sekali menggunakan warna yang ada unsur merahnya.. I didn't like it.. Tapi mereka berkata bahwa paling tidak harus ada sedikit.. Jadi akhirnya diputuskan untuk menggunakan warna pink yang muda sekali, dikombinasikan dengan warna biru yang juga sangat muda..

About my dress, coba tebak apa warna yang saya inginkan hayo,hahahaha.. Tidak tahu kenapa, saya ingin sekali menggunakan warna kuning.. YES, IT'S YELLOW!! LOL.. Thankfully, untuk urusan dress, saya juga dibebaskan untuk menggunakan warna yang saya inginkan..

Tapi setelah berputar2 selama berhari2 di Surabaya, I couldn't find any yellow dress that I like.. Sebenarnya mau berencana untuk membuat dress baru, tapi karena waktunya sudah tidak cukup, akhirnya diputuskan untuk menyewa, dengan model yang dicustomized..

And you know guys, milih dress 1 aja , sulitnya itu ampun dah hahahaha.. Perhaps you girls know what I mean.. So many pretty dresses yang ditawarkan kepada saya, jadi bingung banget.. Mami sendiri juga ikut bingung, jadi akhirnya semakin puyeng dah.. Bisa berjam2 untuk mencoba dress- dress itu.. Pakai lepas, coba lagi dilepas lagi, begitu seterusnya..

Sampai akhirnya ada 1 dress ini yang saya suka yang sebenarnya belum diliris keluar.. But unfortunately, the color is dark green.. Menurut saya sebenarnya tidak apa2, tapi menurut mami dan pihak dekor serta EOnya, warna tersebut tidak cocok dengan konsep pestanya.. But I like it so much since the 1st time I saw that dress..

Jadi sedikit memaksa deh untuk menggunakan baju itu hahahahha.. Tapi mami bilang lagi kalau warnanya kurang cocok, kalau dari modelnya sebenarnya bagus2 saja, tidak masalah.. Setelah berhari-hari memikirkan hal tersebut, sempat cukup sedih juga kalau tidak bisa menggunakannya, akhirnya muncullah 1 dress yang sama persis dengan dress yang saya suka tersebut, hanya saja, kali ini warnanya PEACH..

Saya coba baju tersebut dan mami bilang jauh lebih cocok kalau saya menggunakan warna ini karena masih masuk dengan konsep pestanya dan juga lebih cocok dengan warna kulit saya.. Supaya tidak kebingungan terus menerus, akhirnya saya menjatuhkan pilihan pada dress tersebut deh hehehe.. :) Keputusan soal dress ini adalah keputusan terakhir yang harus saya buat yang berkaitan dengan pesta pertunangan nanti.. Jadi, finally, selesailah sudah semuanya..

Pada saat hari semakin dekat, saya sering bertanya kepada diri sendiri kenapa ya tidak ndredeg sama sekali.. Biasanya kalau di film2 kan pihak perempuannya juga grogi, tapi saya tidak.. Malah yang kelihatan ndredeg justru mami,hahhaha.. :D

Namun 10 hari sebelum hari H itu sendiri, tidak tahu mengapa, saya jadi sering sekali uring2an di rumah dan itu sebenarnya tidak ada alasan yang benar2 masuk di akal.. Mami dan Aris kena getahnya semua,hahahhaha.. Merasa bersalah deh kalau ingat2 lagi..

Tiap hari saya ngomel terus dengan alasan2 yang aneh bin ajaib.. Sampai mami bilang kalau saya ni mengada-ngada hal yang sebenarnya tidak ada plus hormon saya yang katanya mungkin jadi semakin labil karena harinya semakin dekat.. Saya sering membuat ada kekhawatiran yang seharusnya sama sekali tidak ada, bahkan tidak perlu dikhawatirkan.. Alhasil sejak hari itu sampai 1 hari sebelum hari H, tiap malam mami mengajak doa bersama supaya saya menjadi tenang..

• Jam 12 malam, sebelum pergantian ke hari H yaitu 18 January 2015.. I could felt my nervousness.. All the memories came back when I first met him.. Never have I imagined, I'm gonna be with him.. Many people perhaps didn't know when I knew this guy, when I became in a relationship and how came I said yes when he proposed to me....

• I admit I didn't go public with our relationship.. And I have my own reasons why.. But it doesn't mean I am ashamed of him like what others always think of.. No.. Absolutely No..

• I am proud of him.. I am proud and love him deeply.. My way of showing my affection to him is perhaps old fashioned compare to what young people do to their lovers nowadays.. Even it's different, it doesn't mean that I love him less..

• He's not perfect and I'm not perfect either.. From our imperfections, we learn to appreciate each other.. From our imperfections, we learn to grow together.. And most importantly, from our imperfections, we can learn together how to be glorify Him together with our own ways..

• There was a time when I was afraid.. Afraid of heartbreaking.. But because of him, I learnt that you need to take one step at a time as well in a relationship.. Not pushing other to become what you want them to be, but ACCEPTING their imperfectness..

• He didn't realize it, but he had taught me a lot of things and I am so grateful of it until today.. 

I AM AMAZED.. HOW GOD CAN SEND AN INDIVIDUAL, 1 SINGLE PERSON, BEYOND YOUR EXPECTATION, THAT CAN CHANGE YOUR WORLD FOREVER.. A PARTNER THAT CAN STAND BY YOUR SIDE.. AND THE BEST PART IS : THAT MIRACLE COMES WHEN YOU DIDN'T EVEN THINK OF IT.. IT'S A SURPRISE GIFT..

At that night, I thanked God for all the disappointment experiences in the past.. Because of that history, I am become at least more mature in 1 area in my life.. Because of that history, I can treasure what I have now..

I told Him, 'Tomorrow is the day Lord.. Be with me, be with me.. Hopefully besok semua dapat berjalan dengan lancar ya'....

And praise to Him always, that day, everything went so smooth..

If I tell you all the story here, perhaps you're gonna be bored reading it hahahha.. Thus, I will show you the glimpse of my e-party..

The point is, at this very moment, I am happy.. I am happy and thankful towards everything in my life..

- It doesn't mean my life is perfect..

- It doesn't mean I don't have any tribulation in my life..

- It doesn't mean everything in my life is good..

- It doesn't mean I have a perfect relationship with him..

- It doesn't mean I always get what I want..

- And it certainly doesn't mean I have nothing to worry about..

NO.. Because the fact is just the contrary to what I said..

- My life is not perfect

- I do have a lot of tribulations in my life..

- My life isn't always good

- I don't have perfect relationship with him.. Sometimes, we argue and misunderstood things..

- I don't always get what I want..

- And I surely have tons of things to be worried about..

REGARDLESS.. REGARDLESS what's going on in my life, every night when I close my eyes before sleep, I smiled, looking up, saying.. 'Thanks Jesus, praise be to God always.. And when I'm boast, always will be, for The Lord's glory'. 

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For you my friends, perhaps you are in the middle of waiting for something.. A job, a breakthrough, a chance, or a partner..

I can't tell you the reason why you need to wait since I don't know.. If only I knew, surely I will let you know..

But, this is what I know : 

* BECAUSE WE DON'T KNOW, WE START TO DEVELOP FAITH.. BECAUSE WE DON'T KNOW, WE START TO HAVE A SURRENDER HEART.. TOWARDS THE ONE WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING..

All I can say is, do not lose hope.. since that hope will not put us to shame... (Romans 5:5A)

Wait patiently in The Lord.. Delight in Him.. In the appointed time, He will give you what your heart desires as long as it's align with His purpose in you..

Take heart.. Stand firm.. Make the most of your time now and be grateful of each moment..

Remember THERE IS A TIME IN EVERYTHING..

And I just read my friend's blog that inspired me..

2 Corinthians 4:8 (MSG) : We’ve been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we’re not demoralized; we’re not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do; .

Stay firm on your faith.. He knows what to do.. We may not know what our future looks like, but we certainly know WHO holds our future..

To close this post, I have 1 more happy news to be shared..

MY PROJECT IS DONE!! IT IS DONE!! I AM SUPER DUPER HAPPY!! LATER , I WILL SHARE IT WITH YOU YA :):)

So overall, 2014 was a very good year for me.. Even I had a lot of ups and down in that year, I still consider it as an amazing year.. The ups taught me to be grateful, the downs taught me to have faith and perseverance.. See, God is so good lho :)

2015? Hmmm.. Of course I believe it will be a BETTER year for me and absolutely for you! Keep the faith ya guys.. THE BEST IS YET TO COME!

ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY 2015!!!!

See you soon again in another post.... And guys, today is my 1st day of school again.. Wohoo!! Wish me luck! :)

Kind regards, Cindy