An Understanding

I've written this post last week, but in the end I decided to publish it later .. I just felt the time was not right and somehow I need a moment for myself.. Weeks ago, a lot of things happened.. I made some mistakes at work that makes me quite frustrated as well,hahahhaha.. Maybe I take it too seriously, LOL.. I often finish work late which makes my body tired.. Responsibilities in other cases, matters that still need to be solved, made my mind and physical condition more tired .. I lost weights.. For about 1 week I almost never open my facebook, twitter, or other social networks.. Some people are asking why they did not hear any news from me, etc .. And yes, I admit, I decided to disappear temporarily from all of them, from all of those things..  to take a smooth break.. But now, here I am BACK.. 
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Greetings! How are you? It's been a while since my last post.. :) Been busy with work and my projects.. Jadi sering kerasa capek juga belakangan ini karena selesai kerja telat, sampai rumah telat, tidur juga jadi telat deh.. But thx God masih sehat-sehat sampai sejauh ini..

In this post, I just wanna share several things that happened to me in these past weeks..

Banyak kejadian aneh-aneh di tempat kerja saya.. I worked at night 23:00-07:30ish.. Minggu-minggu kemarin ini banyak banget kejadian yang bisa dibilang berbahaya buat cewek.. Sampai saya sendiri juga ada rasa takut.. So many drunk people that lost their mind at night guys.. Terus kapan hari ada cewek yang rasanya kena pengaruh drugs gitu, jadi banting-banting barang di reception waktu jam 5an pagi gitu.. Dia pukul dan tendang pintu kamar mandi and pintu masuk hotel.. Budaya disini lebih bebas, jadi waktu malam ada laki-laki yang membawa perempuan-perempuan dari klub, dengan tindakannya yang somehow sudah tidak terkontrol lagi.. Suara mereka keras sekali di lobby dan tingkah lakunya aneh semua..

My manager concerned about me so much.. Jadi kalau sudah ada beberapa guest yang aneh-aneh seperti itu, saya biasanya disuruh diam di dalam office.. Tanpa disuruh pun, kadang jika mulai merasakan keanehan dari guest-guest yang ada, saya langsung masuk office dan bilang kepada manager..

Melihat hal-hal seperti itu somehow memberi tekanan batin buat saya juga.. Mungkin juga dikarenakan saya tidak terbiasa dengan hal-hal seperti itu.. Several days ago, I called my mom.. I told her somehow if it's like this again and again, I can't stand it anymore.. Pekerjaan di malam harinya saya tidak masalah secara jam tidur sekarang sudah mulai bisa disesuaikan.. Badan juga somehow asal istirahat cukup, masih bisa kuat.. Tapi saya tidak bisa jika harus setiap hari menghadapi atau melihat hal-hal sepertit tingkah laku orang mabuk-mabukan, drugs, membawa perempuan-perempuan setelah berpesta di club.. I just can't.. It drives me crazy inside.. Saya bahkan sempat pusing and even want to throw up once karena hari-hari di minggu-minggu lalu selalu ada kejadian2 aneh di tempat kerja..

Not only that, ada seorang atasan saya juga yang kadang tidak mengerjakan tugasnya dengan baik dan benar.. Sempat sebal juga pada waktu itu,ahahhaha.. Beliau sering bersantai, bermain-main dengan handphonenya, lalu meminta saya mengerjakan sesuatu yang sebenarnya adalah tugas beliau.. It's okay for me to help him.. Tapi karena belakangan ini kita juga short staff, kerjaan semakin banyak, hal-hal seperti ini lama-lama membuat saya kesal juga.. Saya berpikir, 'Sudah jelas saya mengerjakan banyak sekali tugas sebagai night audit.. (Kita seharusnya punya 2 night audit, tapi waktu itu tidak tahu kenapa 1 orang saja yang ada di roster. Jadi bisa dibilang saya mengerjakan tugas yang seharusnya dilakukan 2 orang). Dia sebagai manager justru menambahkan tugas yang seharusnya dia lakukan kepada saya. Pernah di suatu hari saya lupa, eh saya dipanggil.. Itu padahal kan tugasnya dia,huuhuh..".

That's why I felt so irritated these past weeks/days.. Hahahha.. Tidak hanya di tempat kerja, tapi beberapa orang di lingkungan saya juga.. Saya merasa mereka tidak mengerti.. Melihat mereka melakukan hal yang sama terus menerus dalam banyak hal meskipun sudah diberi nasehat dan pengertian oleh lebih dari 1 orang.. Beberapa orang yang tidak mengetahui permasalahannya, ikut-ikutan menyangkut pautkan saya dan kadang gampang sekali memberikan komentar panjang lebar..

Sometimes people just tell you whatever they want easily even without knowing anything.. 

Maybe they forget that what is seen is not always the fact..


- Pernahkah itu terjadi kepada kalian?

Several things in your life may seems like not working out or perhaps wasn't turn out as you expected to be.. Then you will experience what pain is.. Feeling hurt and disappointed because you've been trying your best so far to get something you really want, but in the end it's still not yours.. Not infrequently there is an angry feeling towards God, asking why and why.. Accusing that God breaks His promises..

* MOST TIMES, we MISUNDERSTOOD His goodness in our life.. We want everything happen according to what we think/want/plan..

- I also learned that God too, sometimes did not do anything to make people understand the reason why He let something happen.. The reason why He let pain comes to His chidren's life.. The reason why He allowed disappointment enter people's life.. The reason why He let us be angry..


* I realized that whatever we did to Him, He still there .. Quietly watching over His children and CONTINUE WORKING BEHIND THE SCENE: TO MAKE EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL IN ITS TIME ..

* I REALIZED THAT SOMETIMES GOD WANT US TO GIVE TIME (ESPECIALLY HIS TIME) A TIME ..

## GIVE TIME A MOMENT TO ARRANGE EVERYTHING IN OUR LIFE .. 
## GIVE TIME A MONTH, EVEN YEARS TO MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND ABOUT LITTLE / BIG THINGS THAT OCCUR IN YOUR LIFE.. 
## GIVE TIME A CHANCE TO TELL YOU THE REASON WHY YOU NEED TO FEEL ANY TRIBULATION IN YOUR LIFE.. 

## GIVE TIME A TIME TO TEACH YOU THAT: THERE IS A PROPER TIME IN EVERYTHING..

I GET TOO TIRED TO EXPLAIN TO PEOPLE THE REASON WHY I HAVE TO DO CERTAIN THINGS.. 

PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS GIVES THEIR COMMENT, EVEN AFTER YOU DID THE RIGHT THINGS.. AND IF YOU DID BAD, THEY WILL CRITICIZE YOU EVEN MORE SOMETIMES.. SO, THE CONCLUSION IS PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS TALK NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO..

** Now,It seems THAT GOD REMINDS ME TO THIS PRINCIPLE AGAIN .. I REALIZED THAT MAKING PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ABOUT THINGS ARE NOT ACTUALLY MY TASK..

MANUSIA JUGA MEMBUTUHKAN WAKTU UNTUK MENGERTI SESUATU, BUKAN? TIDAK BISA SECARA INSTAN.. TERKADANG ADA BEBERAPA HAL YANG SAYA MENGERTI TERLEBIH DAHULU DARIPADA MEREKA.. DAN ADA JUGA HAL-HAL YANG MEREKA MENGERTI, YANG BELUM BISA SAYA PAHAMI MESKIPUN MEREKA SUDAH MENJELASKANNYA BERKALI-KALI..

# Even God, DID NOT intervene directly to make someone aware of His plan in the lives of their children .. EVEN WE ARE PANIC SINCE WE DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS AND THAT, HE KEEPS CALM..

# He gives that responsibility to TIME .. He gives TIME that task .. He gives TIME the task to open people's eyes so they can understand His Masterplan..

# YOU WILL UNDERSTAND IT AS TIME GOES BY......

# My friends, let's learn together to be more patient TO TIME.. GIVE TIME A CHANCE TO DO HIS JOB .. I learned to accept the misunderstanding and bad comment that people talked about.. They can say whatever they want.. Humans are not perfect, they can let you down.. Maybe that happens to you too..

# You don't need to listen to every word they say.. Remember that you have a Savior who always on your side .. If you do it right, do not worry .. Do not be afraid .. TIME WILL PROVE IT.. TIME, WILL ALWAYS BE ON THE RIGHT SIDE.. TIME CAN'T LIE.. You're not alone in this world ..

# If you are trying to explain something, but people do not understand, it's alright too.. Your Heavenly Father knows about it.. IF IT'S RIGHT, IT WILL STILL RIGHT FOREVER..YOU JUST NEED TO STAND STILL AND HE WILL FIGHT FOR YOU.. Human see what's on the outside but He looks inside,got it ? Let's apply this principle together.. Let's have faith in God's time..

I do not understand many things.. Until today, I still do not understand everything that happens in my life.. BUT THINGS THAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND BEFORE, I AM ABLE TO UNDERSTAND IT NOW..

* Without Him explaining, I understand just by looking at the life that He has been given to me until this moment.. He did not say anything, He just stands still here with me, I am the one that said, 'Ahhh .. I understand now why ...... '. And when I said that, I know He's smiling and happy to see that I finally fathom the reason, BY GIVING TIME AN OPPORTUNITY TO DO ITS PURPOSE ......

# Saya berterimakasih kepada Tuhan yang mengingatkan saya sekali lagi akan prinsip waktu ini.. Saya berterimakasih kekecewaan dan kesedihan itu diijinkan datang untuk kembali mengajarkan saya tentang waktu.. Dan dari apa yang dinamakan WAKTU itu, saya belajar untuk MENERIMA DAN BERSABAR akan segala sesuatunya sehingga membuat saya menjadi orang yang lebih positif.. Even people don't understand, as long as He understand, as long as He stands by me, I know I still can smile again and be happy, like what I am today now.. Thanks Jesus..

Sudah dari 2-3 minggu lalu mau share tentang ini, cuma karena beberapa alasan ditunda dulu and baru sekarang share kepada kalian.. Sejak saya diingatkan kembali tentang hal-hal di atas, saya bisa kembali on track dan menjalani semuanya dengan senyuman, oweeeeee :) Hehehehhe.. God is good kok ya.. Hhihiihihih.. I hope my stories can strengthen you ya.. And ada 1 post tentang Valentine lho sebelumnya yang belum saya post sampai detik ini,omo!! Hopefully soon ya.. Okay deh kalau gitu, enjoy your day guys! :)

Ecclesiates 3:1 = "THERE IS A TIME FOR EVERYTHING, AND A SEASON FOR EVERY ACTIVITY under the heaves"

Regards, Cindy