Morning Light

Yellow! How's life? Busy? Steady? I hope everything's going well for you there.. It's getting colder and colder here.. Tidak hanya cuacanya yang super dingin, tapi ditambah juga hujan angin guys.. Minggu lalu, setiap harinya hujan terus tidak berhenti, dari pagi-malam, sampai bingung juga ngliatnya.. Boot shoes and umbrella are 'a must'.. Karena begitu dingin, sempat lho kalau kita lagi berbicara satu sama lain, keluar asap dari mulut.. Brrr.. Ok then, let the story begins.. Enjoy readingggg all..

Minggu lalu adalah minggu-minggu penyesuaian saya untuk kembali ke 'hidup normal'. Ternyata cukup sulit juga lho,hahahhaha.. Saya tetap tidur di malam hari, tapi malam yang dimaksud, sebenarnya bisa dibilang sudah pagi juga, yaitu jam 4-5am.. Lalu bangunnya siang banget sekitar jam 12pm. Selama 2-3 hari berlangsung seperti itu..

Ada 1 hari, dimana saya tidur jam 5, lalu bangun sekitar jam9an pagi..

After waking up, I craved for pancake suddenly.. So I went to McDonald across my apartment and bought   it.. It was so delicious guys!! Uenak tenan bahasa Jowonya, LOL.. Sampai ketawa2 sendiri pas makan,hahahhaha.. Siangnya, saya mulai mengantuk, tapi tidak tidur agar nanti bisa tidur tepat waktu malamnya.. Alhasil, bener deh.. Jam 11pm saya sudah tepar di ranjang.. Dan hari-hari setelah itu, jadwal tidur saya mulai kembali teratur lagi.. Thx God finally :) Maximal jam 2am saya sudah tidur, dan bangun jam9am.. Oke kan ya? Hehehehhe.. Finally benar-benar bisa balik to normal life that I've been missed these last 6 months.. :)

* Seminggu lalu, tiap harinya hujan.. Pada waktu pagi dimana saya pergi ke McD untuk membeli pancake, saya menyadari sesuatu yang tidak pernah saya sadari sebelumnya.. Saat saya keluar gedung apartemen, berjalan ke arah McD, saya melihat genangan air di jalan akibat hujan.. Lalu melihat ke langit, dan ke depan, memandang cukup banyak orang di jalan mengenakan jaket-jaket tebal.. I can feel the winter atmosphere.. At that time, I stopped.. Langkah kaki saya berhenti sejenak..

I don't know why, I was just so happy. Trully happy.. Saya tidak menyangka bisa sesenang itu hanya karena melihat pemandangan air, langit, dan orang-orang di jalan..

Mungkin bagi kalian, hal-hal yang saya sebutkan tadi adalah hal biasa.. Bahkan mungkin terkesan 'aneh' ya bahwa saya bisa seneng banget hanya karena melihat hal itu? Hahahhahahha.. Tapi untuk saya yang sudah merasakan hidup terbalik (worked at 11pm-7:30am), hal-hal kecil itu sungguh memberikan kesan yang luar biasa.. Saya bahkan bertanya kepada diri sendiri kenapa tidak pernah menyadari hal tersebut pada waktu menjalani hidup dengan jam normal dulunya.

Isn't it funny? Previously, I was given the opportunity to enjoy the sunshine and the scenery every day, but I never realized the beauty behind it.. The last 6 months, I lost those views and light.. I missed it.. Now, when the hour of my life is back to normal again, I just feel those things are really beautiful..

I guess words like 'You will know how things are trully means to you once they're gone' is true somehow..

These days, I become a more grateful person.. I learned that things that look ordinary in life, actually some (perhaps most) of them are free gifts from the Creator.. Air, sunlight, scenery, and many others ..Looks simple, but once gone, somehow you will long for it too..

* Thus, I just want to encourage you to be more thankful.. Not only because great things happen in your life, but also due to the USUAL things that are ALREADY in front of you .. Be thankful if you could wake up in the morning, do your activities, and returned home at night to rest again .. Even it looks like a normal thing, seems nothing special in it, still be grateful.. 

There are many people in this world who want to live as normally as you.. You are lucky!

** Never wait until something missing from your life first.. Be aware of what you have at this very moment.. Recognize and treasure its value.. Be grateful for whoever in your inner/outer circle, for whatever happens to you : TODAY.. 

** The things that SEEM NORMAL, can actually have tremendous meaning if we want to look deeply into it.. WIDE AWAKE, friends! WIDE AWAKE..

* Genesis 1:3-4a = And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. God saw that the light was good,......

Regards, Cindy

See you Later, Team...

Greetings peeps! How are you? I hope all is well with your life.. Don't forget to take care of your health always ya :) June means WINTER here!!! Yap, it's winter in Sydney now.. Dingin banget teman2.. Brrr.. Electric blanket saya selalu ON setiap saat.. Jadi waktu saya mau tidur, ranjang saya sudah langsung hangat.. Heheheheh.. Kalau mau bangun sulit sekali karena super dingin di pagi hari.. Tidak bisa lepas dari ranjang dan selimut deh,hohoohoh.. Selain winter time, Juni ini juga merupakan bulan dimana saya akhirnya sudah official keluar dari posisi saya sebagai night auditor.. 

Last Sunday was my last shift.. That day, I came early, around 10:20 pm.. Saya pergi ke Ibis dulu, menyalami mereka semua dan mengucapkan terima kasih untuk segala sesuatunya.. Orang-orang di Ibis semuanya terkejut sekali mendengar kabar bahwa saya memutuskan untuk resign.. They knew the news only 3-4 days prior my last day.. Mereka semua bertanya mengapa dan saya pun memberi penjelasan singkat di balik keputusan saya itu.. And surprisingly, they were all agree with me..They supported my decision and wishing me all the best in everything.. 

Then, I went to Novotel.. Ketika membuka loker, melihat seragam yang sudah saya kenakan cukup lama, tiba-tiba muncullah suatu perasaan juga.. I said to myself 'Today is my last day wearing this uniform.. Finaly, it ends'. After changing, I went straight to Back of Office.. I came to my work colleagues, berjabat tangan dengan mereka one by one sambil mengucapkan terima kasih sebanyak-banyaknya.. Kita saling bertukar kontak ataupun email agar tetap bisa keep in touch..

Di shift saya yang terakhir itu, hotel sama sekali tidak sibuk.. Jadi saya benar-benar bisa enjoy,hahahahha.. Pagi harinya, pengumuman bahwa ini adalah hari terakhir saya bekerja diumumkan oleh manager saya di morning briefing.. Lalu mereka memberikan kepada saya kartu jumbo yang berisi tanda tangan dan ucapan-ucapan dari teman-teman.. Sebelumnya, secara tidak sengaja, sebenarnya saya sudah melihat kartu itu.. hahahha.. Still, I was touched deeply.. Sebelum meninggalkan Front Office, saya pergi ke kantor manager saya dan mengucapkan terima kasih atas arahan dan dukungan yang beliau berikan..

Tidak saya pungkiri bahwa ada kalanya dimana saya kesal atau jengkel dengan cara kerja beberapa orang yang tidak maksimal, saling melempar tanggung jawab, bahkan menyalahkan dan menjelekkan satu sama lain.. Well, mungkin itu memang kenyataan yang ada di dunia pekerjaan.. That's part of the 'real' world I guess.. But still, sebagian dari mereka, benar-benar sudah memberikan pengajaran dan contoh yang baik, yang sangat berguna untuk saya.. Dengan sabar mendidik dan menunjukkan saya banyak hal.. Oleh karena itu, terlepas dari apapun yang terjadi, I'm still happy and grateful, because of them..

* I did not know any single things before.. I even did not have any experiences in this field.. I learned from zero about the policy, management style, how to deal with people, handle complaint, the paperworks, and many more.. My character was shaped.. And THE TEAM, has such a big part of it..  

Thanks God I'm able to finish this race well.. I am very satisfied with myself at this point.. I am happy, full of endless gratitude towards HIM and those people.. I'm gonna rest this week, refreshed myself and just enjoy each part of my life in this very moment.. I will fix my sleeping hours, back to normal light (not becoming night owl anymore, LOL), and do things that I like.. Other thing is, I will have more quality time with my God.. Just me and Him.. Isn't it just wonderful? Hehe..

I will show you the card yaaa.. :) It almost made me cry, hahahahha..

 

* It will never be a good bye for me.. Just SEE YA LATER, TEAM!

Regards, Cindy

Ps : 1 race finished, but the journey hasn't.. Can't wait for the next challenges! Hoot hoot! :)

Flash News

Greetings everyone! How are you?? Sudah cukup lama ya tidak memberi update berita,hehehehhe.. Kalian semua gimana kabar? Sibuk ya sama tugas akhir kuliah? Ujian? Kerja? Semangat terus and jangan lupa jaga kesehatan ya.. Selalu sediakan waktu untuk bersantai dan beristirahat sejenak,ok!

Di post ini, langsung saja ya, cuma mau update tentang apa yang terjadi disini dalam beberapa hari ini..

Last week, my mom and dad came here to Sydney.. Seneng banget lho,hehhehe.. Saya juga sudah ijin kerja jadi bisa menemani mereka jalan-jalan and of course, menggendut bersama makan terus tidak berhenti.. Mereka suka banget makanan disini, sehari gitu makan 4x bisa lho, sama nyamil2nya.. Untung saya masih bisa menahan diri,hahahha..

Baru kemarin mereka balik ke Surabaya.. Huhuhuhu.. Which means, saya pun mulai hari ini kembali bekerja.. Pada waktu mereka disini, kita spent banyak banget quality time, cerita-cerita tentang banyak hal, bertukar pikiran, dan tertawa bersama.. Di hotel pun, kita ber3 selalu tidurnya tengah malam.. Padahal biasanya hanya saya yang kuat tidur sampai malam, LOL.. Mami juga banyak memberi masukan dan nasehat yang berguna.. I was so happy and grateful :D

Talking about work, weeks ago, I decided to resign from my job.. 

Saya memertimbangkan banyak hal mulai dari kesehatan.. Ini adalah alasan utama.. Daya tahan tubuh saya semakin menurun karena cuaca disini sudah mulai memasuki Winter.. Dingin banget, kalau kerja tengah malam hingga pagi terus, badan saya bisa rontok semua.. Terbukti sudah kapan hari saya sakit selama 2 minggu bed ridden.. It was horrible.. Tubuh saya sudah mencapai batasannya.. Kesehatan bukanlah suatu hal yang bisa dikompromikan dengan mudah.. It's a gift that you need to maintain..

Dulu pun saya mengambil kerja night auditor ini karena skill ini dibutuhkan jika ingin mendapatkan posisi yang lebih bagus nantinya.. Saya sudah menjadi auditor selama kurang lebih hampir 6 bulan, dan saya merasa itu sudah cukup.. Saya tidak bisa menunggu terlalu lama bagi management hotel untuk memberikan posisi yang saya inginkan, meskipun mereka berkata bisa memberikannya.. But still, I need to wait months and months..  That's one of my biggest concern too : I CAN'T WAIT.. I HAVE TIME LIMIT IN AUSTRALIA..

Visa saya di Australia akan habis tahun depan, saya tidak akan mau jika harus menjadi night auditor untuk waktu yang lama.. Therefore, I decided to take other opportunities from outside.. Di waktu yang masih tersisa ini, saya akan mengambil kesempatan-kesempatan yang ada, belajar mengenai hal-hal baru lainnya, and do the best untuk mendapatkan pengalaman yang jauh lebih baik lagi dan berguna untuk career saya di masa depan..

Please pray for me ya guys :)

Lalu juga, part of me want to take some break.. Saya bersyukur sekali dipercayakan memperoleh tanggung jawab di bidang pekerjaan mulai dari dulu sekali ketika saya masih berusia sangat muda, 17 tahun. Because of that too maybe, beberapa waktu lalu, mulai timbul keinginan untuk mengambil vakum sejenak dari apa yang namanya bekerja.. I wanna take a full rest from working and enjoy my youth life.. Ini adalah salah 1 pergumulan terbesar saya selama beberapa waktu lalu sebelum akhirnya mengambil keputusan.. 
Pihak keluarga pun mengerti dan menyetujui jika saya berhenti kerja malam karena sama sekali tidak baik untuk kesehatan.. Mereka juga memahami bahwa saya sudah mulai memikul tanggung jawab besar di usia belia, serta belajar hidup mandiri untuk membiayai seluruh kehidupan yang ada selama hampir 4 tahun tinggal di Australia, jadi adalah hal yang wajar jika saya mengambil 'break time' untuk menikmati hasil kerja keras selama ini.. They support me to take a full 'rest moment', refreshed myself, lalu kembali lagi bertanggung jawab dan serius after holiday..

Beberapa minggu ke depan adalah minggu-minggu terakhir saya bekerja.. I will do my best still in my workplace, and I can't wait to enjoy my 'rest moments',hihiihihihi.. Saya akan bisa meluangkan banyak sekali waktu untuk meng-update blog serta melakukan project-project lain yang saya suka.. Woot woot!

July is coming soon also.. It's totally almost holiday season for me,hehhehe.. I will see my fam and closest friends soon in Indo.. Should I plan a sweet getaway trip? Maybe Yes, maybe No! Hahaha.. Just thinking about it made me so excited already..

Bagi kalian juga ya teman-teman, BE WISE dalam mengatur waktumu.. Ketahuilah kadang kalau sudah bekerja, hidup bisa menjadi monoton.. Thus, pembagian waktu yang benar sangatlah penting, contohnya seperti waktu untuk bekerja dan beristirahat.. Kerja keras terus-menerus juga tidak baik, bermain dan bersenang-senang terus juga tidaklah benar..

* Remember : segala sesuatunya harus sebisa mungkin diusahakan seimbang ya.. It's for your own good..

Untuk beberapa dari kalian, mungkin sekarang adalah waktu untuk bekerja ataupun menata karir.. Berikanlah yang terbaik selalu.. Jangan mudah menyerah dan jangan mengeluh.. Banyak orang yang menginginkan pekerjaan yang kalian miliki sekarang.. Jangan pernah lupa untuk mengucap syukur dengan apa yang kamu miliki saat ini..

- Bersyukurlah selalu dengan kehidupan yang ada padamu SEKARANG.. Jangan pernah menunda rasa syukur dan terima kasih yang bisa kamu berikan pada Tuhan SAAT INI.. God is good my friend.. God is good :)

Sekian kabar berita terbaru dari saya.. Nanti ya sebisa mungkin aku bakal sering update dan publish post-post yang sempat tertunda.. All the best guys!

* WORK HARD, REST WELL.... OK?

Regards, Cindy

Stop and Rest..

6-5-2013 : 

This morning, I finished working at 7:30am and arrived at my apartment around 8 in the morning.. Usually, I sleep till 4pm, but today, i woke up earlier than usual, about 2pm.. I couldn't sleep anymore so I decided to take my daily devotion and read an article by Joe Stowell.. Such a beautiful reminder and I believe it will just 'hit the spot' perfectly in some areas of your life too.. Again, I will add several stories from my own experience ya.. Happy reading!
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LIFE IS A BUSY ENTERPRISE IN SOME POINTS.. IT SEEMS THERE ARE ALWAYS MORE THINGS TO DO, PLACES TO GO, AND PEOPLE TO MEET..

WITHOUT REALIZING IT SOMETIMES, OUR BUSY LIFE CAN ROB US OF THE QUIETNESS THAT WE NEED..

When we're driving a car, stop signs and other signs warning us to slow down. We can called those as REMINDERS to be safe. We can't have our foot on the accelerator all the time. Admit it or not, it works the same for our activities also.

The Psalmist clearly knew THE IMPORTANCE OF TIMES OF CALM AND QUIET.

GOD HIMSELF 'RESTED' ON THE SEVENTH DAY. YOU CAN ALSO READ IT HERE :

+) Matthew 14 : 13a = "When Jesus heard what had happened, He withdrew by boat privately to a solitary place". 

*) He knew IT WAS NOT WISE to accelerate through life with our gas gauge registering on 'WEARY' all the time.

+) PSALM 131 : 2 SAID 'I HAVE CALMED AND QUIETED MY SOUL, LIKE A WEANED CHILD WITH HIS MOTHER ; LIKE A WEANED CHILD IS MY SOUL WITHIN ME'.

- QUESTION = WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU COULD ECHO THE PSALMIST'S WORDS, "I HAVE CALMED AND QUIETED MY SOUL LIKE WORDS ABOVE?

Some say, it's better to be busy than have nothing to do at all.. I agree! It's good if you have something to do right now.. You study, you work, try hard to achieve your dreams, you serve others, etc. You can mention all your activities here..

However, human sometimes can forget that busy lifestyle, if you let it to be like that for a long time, it can take over your whole time and the LIFE ITSELF.. It's alright to be busy, but too busy until you don't have time for yourself and HIM, I guess it's totally a wrong thing..

When I have days off, usually I meet some friends. We watch movie and eat together, walking around the street or just sharing stories about life.. Nevertheless, I always have spare time for myself too.. I called it as 'ME TIME'. I do something that I really like (beside hospitality indeed, I do have other hobbies too,lol), I read some books at Starbuck (my fave. cafe for all time), drinking the my favourite drink (chocolate indeed), eat some brownies (it's chocolate again), listening to music with my mp4, and just look at the people that pass by.. In here, believe it or not, sometimes I go to the cinema and watching movie ALONE.. You can say I'm a loner in some points, haha!

And in that time, when it's just me, another good thing is I can have quality time with my God.. Just talking to Him in my heart while walking, sharing my stories to Him while reading, praising Him with my tiny little voice while listening to the music.

THE POINTS ARE =

1. HUMAN WILL ALWAYS NEEDS (A/SOME) TIME TO REST.. WHOEVER, WHEREVER, AND WHENEVER YOU ARE.. REST IS A MUST..
- People sometimes, without realizing it, can push her/himself too hard to achieve something or to gain something that they really want. They forget that this body, mind, and soul somehow need rest.
- Remember this : pushing yourself is good because human need to be pushed also in some areas.. It's also a part of SELF ENCOURAGEMENT.. But, pushing yourself TOO HARD UNTIL YOU FORGET about the importance of resting is absolutely not right. Perhaps, it will make your condition and things that you've planned even worse if you force yourself too much.

2. HUMAN NEEDS TIME FOR HER/HIMSELF..
- I find that sometimes life has its own reason to make human do things that they actually don't really like. Somehow, we need to accept it. But still, you yourself need to do things that you really love.. Doing things that you really passionate about is also part of resting your mind, body, and soul.
- I believe each person will always have time when they don't have anything to do at all in 1 day or 1 week at least. The problem is most people usually ONLY WAIT until they do have spare time. Do you know that there are things in this life that you must create yourself instead of waiting all the time? Once again, busy lifestyle can make people forget about resting. Therefore, it's actually gonna be better if you CREATE TIME to rest for a while from your daily routine.. Refreshed yourself! Resting doesn't mean you sleep all the time too lho yaa. Please don't get me wrong. Hahhaha.. There are many forms of resting that you can do.. :)

3. HUMAN NEEDS TIME FOR HER/HIMSELF AND GOD.. TIME FOR BOTH OF YOU ONLY!
- I don't really have words for this since every individual has his/her own experience and outcome in this point. What I can guarantee is if you do create time for Him and yourself, it will affect your everything from the inside first.. And if the inside is right, what comes out from your mouth, your action, and your perspective will be set right too.. To become more positive and calm person.

+) Mark 6 : 31b = “COME WITH ME BY YOURSELVES TO A QUIET PLACE AND GET SOME REST.”

- Like me, I worry about lots of things sometimes.. Knowing that the people whom I respect and love anxious, can make me confuse.. Then I will finally become distracted too..  (1)See, circumstances can affect an individual in so many ways.. (2) Humans always have their own concern about several things in their life and they can make them worry or at least produce self-confusion.. Those 2 are INEVITABLE.. Even if someone has the biggest faith in the world, there will be A TIME when you worry or have many things going on in your mind..

**) Thus, time between you and your Creator is actually A REMINDER..

a) A REMINDER THAT YOU HAVE HIM STAND BY YOU
b) A REMINDER TO COME TO HIM AND CAST ALL YOUR WORRIES
c) A REMINDER THAT HE HAS YOU IN THE PALMS OF HIS HANDS
d) A REMINDER THAT YOU ARE THE APPLE OF HIS EYES
e) A REMINDER THAT HE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU
f) A REMINDER THAT IF HE LETS SOMETHING HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE, HE'S SURELY HAS WONDERFUL PURPOSE AND REASON ALSO
g) A REMINDER TO LET HIM BE HIM.. LET GOD BE GOD
h) A REMINDER TO BE STILL AND JUST REST
i) A REMINDER THAT HE WILL FIGHT FOR YOU

##) KNOWING THIS MY FRIEND = RESTING IS ACTUALLY THE MOST EFFORTLESS AND SIMPLEST ACT OF FAITH THAT HUMAN CAN DO BUT ALSO THE EASIEST THING THAT CAN BE FORGOTTEN. 

* IF YOU FEEL THAT YOU'RE ALREADY TOO BUSY IN THESE TIMES, I WANT TO ENCOURAGE YOU TO PUT A STOP SIGN AT THE INTERSECTION OF YOUR BUSY LIFE. YOU ARE THE BEST PERSON TO KNOW WHEN TO REST.

* FIND A PLACE TO BE ALONE FOR A WHILE. TURN OFF THE DISTRACTION THAT MAKE A DISTANCE BETWEEN YOU AND YOUR CREATOR. SHARE WHAT YOU WANT, LISTEN TO HIS WORDS AND JUST BE STILL.

##) "LIFE CAN MAKE ALL OF US WEARY AND STRESSED AT TIMES. HENCE, STOP SIGN IS A DEFINITE NEED FOR HUMAN. DO NOT JUST WAIT, BUT TAKE TIME TO QUIET YOUR SOUL BEFORE HIM. REST AND TAKE A BREAK FROM THE BUSYNESS OF LIFE SO THAT YOU CAN REFUEL YOUR SOUL".

Regards, Cindy

Uncontrollable Unexpected

Greetings! How are you? I'm gonna be quick this time.. I read a story (by Bill Crowder) , then I added (changed) several things based on my own experience and wanna share it to all of you, hope can be a blessing! :)

Life is full of surprises - some of which take life in unwelcome directions.

I still remember the shockwave that hit my family when my dad passed away suddenly. I was only a small kid and did not understand almost everything. I just stood there and heard my mom cried so hard from my uncle's cellphone. What happened was beyond our control and UNEXPECTED. My mom had to take over so many responsibilities that she had never imagined before. But, she still knew that she could trust God for her future.. my future.. our future..

As Christ followers, we must recognize that there are things in life that are the "UNCONTROLLABLE UNEXPECTED", as I call them. 

To help us in those moments, James 4 : 13-15 offers this wisdom =

' Listen now, you who speak like this 'Today or tomorrow we will go off to this city and spend a year there; we will do business and make money." You have no idea what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? No more than a mist which appears for a moment and then disappears. Instead of this, you SHOULD say, " IF THE LORD WILLS, we will live and do this or that". '

The people to whom James was writing were making plans while EXCLUDING God's prerogative to direct their lives.

How many of us still like that too sometimes? Make an agenda and without realizing it, forced God to do it just like what we've planned, based on our way and timing..

Is it wrong to plan for the future? Of course not. We all have plans I believe. It is UNWISE, however, to forget that God may allow some 'UNCONTROLLABLE UNEXPECTED' events AS HE SEES FIT.

ULTIMATELY, ALL THAT HAPPENS IS FOR THE BEST - EVEN WHEN IT'S HARD TO SEE.

- PERHAPS, WHAT COULD POSSIBLY HAPPEN IS, YOU ACTUALLY SEE THAT CERTAIN THINGS HAPPENED FOR YOUR BEST, BUT REFUSE TO ACCEPT IT SINCE IT DID NOT HAPPEN LIKE YOUR PLAN? 

- OR BECAUSE YOU FORCE SOME THINGS TOO MUCH THAT MAKE YOU BLIND ABOUT WHAT'S ACTUALLY THE BEST FOR YOU? IF THAT'S THE CASE, SORRY TO SAY, IT'S YOUR PROBLEM THEN.. 

* NEVER PUT THE BLAME ON GOD OR OTHER PEOPLE BEFORE YOU CAN SEE YOURSELF.. THERE IS A TIME WHERE HUMAN ACTUALLY NEEDS TO LOOK TO HIM/HERSELF IN THE MIRROR,  THINKING ' AM I ACTUALLY THE ONE THAT CAUSE THE PROBLEMS IN MY OWN LIFE? ' YOU CAN CALL THIS AS SELF INTROSPECTION.

It's good if you want something, you pray and have faith in it.. I do those things too.. Yet, it will be so much better if we learn to always includes A SURRENDER HEART.. BY INCLUDING GOD'S OWN WILL IN our PRAYER.. "IF IT'S YOUR WILL LORD,............." Let's practice this together even more, shall we? :)

# I ALWAYS THINK I KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR ME. BUT I REALIZE IF I WANT THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN IN MY LIFE, I NEED TO SURRENDER MY PLAN TO HIM.. HE CAN CHANGE IT AS HE WISH.. I'M JUST GONNA DO THE BEST FROM WHAT I HAVE AND WHAT I CAN DO.. 

* I KNOW WHO HOLDS MY FUTURE.. IT HURTS MOST TIMES IF I DID NOT GET WHAT I WANT, SEVERAL PLANS GOT RUINED BECAUSE OF THOSE 'UNCONTROLLABLE UNEXPECTED".. STILL, IN THE END, I AM HAPPY, HAPPIER THAN WHAT I'VE IMAGINED IF THINGS HAPPENED ACCORDING TO MY PLAN.. I AM HAPPIER, BECOMING MORE GRATEFUL PERSON BECAUSE HIS PLAN IS THE ONE THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE..  HE IS ALWAYS ONE, HUNDREDS, THOUSAND STEPS FORWARDS THAN ME..

WITH GOD THINGS DON'T JUST HAPPEN - EVERYTHING BY HIM IS PLANNED - A.SMITH

- FRIENDS, WE MAY NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS, BUT WE CAN TRUST THE ONE WHO HOLDS THE FUTURE.

Regards, Cindy

Easter 2012+2013

Greetings!! It's been weeks and weeks since my last time wrote.. Been busy with works and many things happened also which still need to be settled, LOL.. Hari-hari kemarin kesehatan juga sempat drop karena jadwal kerja yang terus2an 10 hari straight tanpa day off.. Di hari ke9 akhirnya call sick supaya dapat beristirahat.. Thanks God sekarang sudah kembali fit seperti semula :)

This is just a short post actually.. I wanna showed you the pics that I took for last and this year Hillsong's Easter celebration.. Tahun lalu, saya mempunyai kesempatan untuk datang di kebaktian puncak Easter Hillsong di malam hari, tapi tahun ini I had to work, jadi cuma bisa datang di kebaktian umum di pagi harinya..

Easter tahun ini cukup ekstrim juga sih, jadi hari sebelumnya saya kerja.. Kebaktian Paskahnya diadakan jam 10 pagi keesokan harinya.. Sebelumnya saya sempat berpikir bahwa jika selesai kerjanya tepat waktu, saya dapat tiba di rumah kurang lebih jam 8 kurang.. Jadi paling tidak bisa beristirahat sebentar sebelum pergi jam 10nya.. Namun yang terjadi justru kebalikannya.. Saya selesai kerja jam stengah9an lebih karena suasana di tempat kerja menjadi hectic sekali, masih harus allocate beberapa kamar untuk airlane crew, ada teman kerja saya yang melakukan kesalahan sehingga duty manager sempat marah juga, dan banyak lainnya.. 

So, saya tiba di rumah stengah9an lebih kira2, cuma bisa duduk dan tiduran sebentar (15 menit memejamkan mata approximately), lalu bangun dan segera siap2 ke ibadah paginya.. Untungnya, tempat diadakan kebaktian ini adalah di dekat apartemen saya, di Sydney Entertainment Centre.. 

The weather was so cold that day, made me wanna sleep to actually,hahahhaha.. Kebaktiannya sampe jam 12an, lalu saya pergi makan sebentar karena super lapar, lalu pulang ke apartemen FINALLY!!.. Sampainya di apartemen jam 2, sudah benar-benar capek dan langsung ingin tidur, tapi roomate saya tiba2 cerita sharing.. Jadi saya mendengarkannya sampai jam 3an, lalu setelah itu langsung tidur straight sampai jam stengah 10an teman2.. Jam 10 saya harus siap2 untuk berangkat kerja lagi.. 

Setelah hari itu, stamina saya benar-benar langsung menurun dan tidur cukup lama sekali sebelum malemnya harus kerja lagi.. Tired day sih, but still I was happy too,hehehehhe :D

Happy Easter ya semuanyaaa.. How's your Easter Celebration?? It was great, right??

At this Easter, I'm very grateful.. I've been reminded once again that I have a Savior who died and rose for me.. What a privelege to have Him as my God and Father.. The One that always stays with me till now.. My decision to follow Him years ago was simply the best.. No turning back... No turning back...

Here are some pics that I took.. 

A) Easter 2012

                                                      Cross equals Love 'The Project'

                                           Welcome Home!! Morning Easter Celebration

Lead Pastor of Hillsong Church-Brian Houston and some leaders of Hillsong Australia- Steve Dixon, Chris Mendez and Joel A'Bell (Sydney&Brisbane) shared their words about the meaning of Easter. 

                                                                 Praise and Worship

                                                   

                                 Easter Night Celebration'12 with Rev. Reinhard Bonnke

Rev. Reinhard Bonnke shared the words.. He is totally one of the best Christian Evangelist

B) Easter 2013 

- I only had 2 pics since I only attended the morning session.. This year, Reinhard Bonnke came again to Hillsong for the night celebration.. 

- The Easter theme was still the same.. Cross = Love, but with different stage decoration. Pastor Brian Houston shared the words in the morning about Glorious Ruins. I will share it with you guys later on ya! I considered it as one of the best topic that I've ever heard. 

That's all for 2012 and 2013 Easter post guys! Will post some new stories again soon..

Matthew 28:6A = He is not here; HE HAS RISEN, JUST AS HE SAID.

Regards, CIndy

An Understanding

I've written this post last week, but in the end I decided to publish it later .. I just felt the time was not right and somehow I need a moment for myself.. Weeks ago, a lot of things happened.. I made some mistakes at work that makes me quite frustrated as well,hahahhaha.. Maybe I take it too seriously, LOL.. I often finish work late which makes my body tired.. Responsibilities in other cases, matters that still need to be solved, made my mind and physical condition more tired .. I lost weights.. For about 1 week I almost never open my facebook, twitter, or other social networks.. Some people are asking why they did not hear any news from me, etc .. And yes, I admit, I decided to disappear temporarily from all of them, from all of those things..  to take a smooth break.. But now, here I am BACK.. 
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Greetings! How are you? It's been a while since my last post.. :) Been busy with work and my projects.. Jadi sering kerasa capek juga belakangan ini karena selesai kerja telat, sampai rumah telat, tidur juga jadi telat deh.. But thx God masih sehat-sehat sampai sejauh ini..

In this post, I just wanna share several things that happened to me in these past weeks..

Banyak kejadian aneh-aneh di tempat kerja saya.. I worked at night 23:00-07:30ish.. Minggu-minggu kemarin ini banyak banget kejadian yang bisa dibilang berbahaya buat cewek.. Sampai saya sendiri juga ada rasa takut.. So many drunk people that lost their mind at night guys.. Terus kapan hari ada cewek yang rasanya kena pengaruh drugs gitu, jadi banting-banting barang di reception waktu jam 5an pagi gitu.. Dia pukul dan tendang pintu kamar mandi and pintu masuk hotel.. Budaya disini lebih bebas, jadi waktu malam ada laki-laki yang membawa perempuan-perempuan dari klub, dengan tindakannya yang somehow sudah tidak terkontrol lagi.. Suara mereka keras sekali di lobby dan tingkah lakunya aneh semua..

My manager concerned about me so much.. Jadi kalau sudah ada beberapa guest yang aneh-aneh seperti itu, saya biasanya disuruh diam di dalam office.. Tanpa disuruh pun, kadang jika mulai merasakan keanehan dari guest-guest yang ada, saya langsung masuk office dan bilang kepada manager..

Melihat hal-hal seperti itu somehow memberi tekanan batin buat saya juga.. Mungkin juga dikarenakan saya tidak terbiasa dengan hal-hal seperti itu.. Several days ago, I called my mom.. I told her somehow if it's like this again and again, I can't stand it anymore.. Pekerjaan di malam harinya saya tidak masalah secara jam tidur sekarang sudah mulai bisa disesuaikan.. Badan juga somehow asal istirahat cukup, masih bisa kuat.. Tapi saya tidak bisa jika harus setiap hari menghadapi atau melihat hal-hal sepertit tingkah laku orang mabuk-mabukan, drugs, membawa perempuan-perempuan setelah berpesta di club.. I just can't.. It drives me crazy inside.. Saya bahkan sempat pusing and even want to throw up once karena hari-hari di minggu-minggu lalu selalu ada kejadian2 aneh di tempat kerja..

Not only that, ada seorang atasan saya juga yang kadang tidak mengerjakan tugasnya dengan baik dan benar.. Sempat sebal juga pada waktu itu,ahahhaha.. Beliau sering bersantai, bermain-main dengan handphonenya, lalu meminta saya mengerjakan sesuatu yang sebenarnya adalah tugas beliau.. It's okay for me to help him.. Tapi karena belakangan ini kita juga short staff, kerjaan semakin banyak, hal-hal seperti ini lama-lama membuat saya kesal juga.. Saya berpikir, 'Sudah jelas saya mengerjakan banyak sekali tugas sebagai night audit.. (Kita seharusnya punya 2 night audit, tapi waktu itu tidak tahu kenapa 1 orang saja yang ada di roster. Jadi bisa dibilang saya mengerjakan tugas yang seharusnya dilakukan 2 orang). Dia sebagai manager justru menambahkan tugas yang seharusnya dia lakukan kepada saya. Pernah di suatu hari saya lupa, eh saya dipanggil.. Itu padahal kan tugasnya dia,huuhuh..".

That's why I felt so irritated these past weeks/days.. Hahahha.. Tidak hanya di tempat kerja, tapi beberapa orang di lingkungan saya juga.. Saya merasa mereka tidak mengerti.. Melihat mereka melakukan hal yang sama terus menerus dalam banyak hal meskipun sudah diberi nasehat dan pengertian oleh lebih dari 1 orang.. Beberapa orang yang tidak mengetahui permasalahannya, ikut-ikutan menyangkut pautkan saya dan kadang gampang sekali memberikan komentar panjang lebar..

Sometimes people just tell you whatever they want easily even without knowing anything.. 

Maybe they forget that what is seen is not always the fact..


- Pernahkah itu terjadi kepada kalian?

Several things in your life may seems like not working out or perhaps wasn't turn out as you expected to be.. Then you will experience what pain is.. Feeling hurt and disappointed because you've been trying your best so far to get something you really want, but in the end it's still not yours.. Not infrequently there is an angry feeling towards God, asking why and why.. Accusing that God breaks His promises..

* MOST TIMES, we MISUNDERSTOOD His goodness in our life.. We want everything happen according to what we think/want/plan..

- I also learned that God too, sometimes did not do anything to make people understand the reason why He let something happen.. The reason why He let pain comes to His chidren's life.. The reason why He allowed disappointment enter people's life.. The reason why He let us be angry..


* I realized that whatever we did to Him, He still there .. Quietly watching over His children and CONTINUE WORKING BEHIND THE SCENE: TO MAKE EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL IN ITS TIME ..

* I REALIZED THAT SOMETIMES GOD WANT US TO GIVE TIME (ESPECIALLY HIS TIME) A TIME ..

## GIVE TIME A MOMENT TO ARRANGE EVERYTHING IN OUR LIFE .. 
## GIVE TIME A MONTH, EVEN YEARS TO MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND ABOUT LITTLE / BIG THINGS THAT OCCUR IN YOUR LIFE.. 
## GIVE TIME A CHANCE TO TELL YOU THE REASON WHY YOU NEED TO FEEL ANY TRIBULATION IN YOUR LIFE.. 

## GIVE TIME A TIME TO TEACH YOU THAT: THERE IS A PROPER TIME IN EVERYTHING..

I GET TOO TIRED TO EXPLAIN TO PEOPLE THE REASON WHY I HAVE TO DO CERTAIN THINGS.. 

PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS GIVES THEIR COMMENT, EVEN AFTER YOU DID THE RIGHT THINGS.. AND IF YOU DID BAD, THEY WILL CRITICIZE YOU EVEN MORE SOMETIMES.. SO, THE CONCLUSION IS PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS TALK NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO..

** Now,It seems THAT GOD REMINDS ME TO THIS PRINCIPLE AGAIN .. I REALIZED THAT MAKING PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ABOUT THINGS ARE NOT ACTUALLY MY TASK..

MANUSIA JUGA MEMBUTUHKAN WAKTU UNTUK MENGERTI SESUATU, BUKAN? TIDAK BISA SECARA INSTAN.. TERKADANG ADA BEBERAPA HAL YANG SAYA MENGERTI TERLEBIH DAHULU DARIPADA MEREKA.. DAN ADA JUGA HAL-HAL YANG MEREKA MENGERTI, YANG BELUM BISA SAYA PAHAMI MESKIPUN MEREKA SUDAH MENJELASKANNYA BERKALI-KALI..

# Even God, DID NOT intervene directly to make someone aware of His plan in the lives of their children .. EVEN WE ARE PANIC SINCE WE DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS AND THAT, HE KEEPS CALM..

# He gives that responsibility to TIME .. He gives TIME that task .. He gives TIME the task to open people's eyes so they can understand His Masterplan..

# YOU WILL UNDERSTAND IT AS TIME GOES BY......

# My friends, let's learn together to be more patient TO TIME.. GIVE TIME A CHANCE TO DO HIS JOB .. I learned to accept the misunderstanding and bad comment that people talked about.. They can say whatever they want.. Humans are not perfect, they can let you down.. Maybe that happens to you too..

# You don't need to listen to every word they say.. Remember that you have a Savior who always on your side .. If you do it right, do not worry .. Do not be afraid .. TIME WILL PROVE IT.. TIME, WILL ALWAYS BE ON THE RIGHT SIDE.. TIME CAN'T LIE.. You're not alone in this world ..

# If you are trying to explain something, but people do not understand, it's alright too.. Your Heavenly Father knows about it.. IF IT'S RIGHT, IT WILL STILL RIGHT FOREVER..YOU JUST NEED TO STAND STILL AND HE WILL FIGHT FOR YOU.. Human see what's on the outside but He looks inside,got it ? Let's apply this principle together.. Let's have faith in God's time..

I do not understand many things.. Until today, I still do not understand everything that happens in my life.. BUT THINGS THAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND BEFORE, I AM ABLE TO UNDERSTAND IT NOW..

* Without Him explaining, I understand just by looking at the life that He has been given to me until this moment.. He did not say anything, He just stands still here with me, I am the one that said, 'Ahhh .. I understand now why ...... '. And when I said that, I know He's smiling and happy to see that I finally fathom the reason, BY GIVING TIME AN OPPORTUNITY TO DO ITS PURPOSE ......

# Saya berterimakasih kepada Tuhan yang mengingatkan saya sekali lagi akan prinsip waktu ini.. Saya berterimakasih kekecewaan dan kesedihan itu diijinkan datang untuk kembali mengajarkan saya tentang waktu.. Dan dari apa yang dinamakan WAKTU itu, saya belajar untuk MENERIMA DAN BERSABAR akan segala sesuatunya sehingga membuat saya menjadi orang yang lebih positif.. Even people don't understand, as long as He understand, as long as He stands by me, I know I still can smile again and be happy, like what I am today now.. Thanks Jesus..

Sudah dari 2-3 minggu lalu mau share tentang ini, cuma karena beberapa alasan ditunda dulu and baru sekarang share kepada kalian.. Sejak saya diingatkan kembali tentang hal-hal di atas, saya bisa kembali on track dan menjalani semuanya dengan senyuman, oweeeeee :) Hehehehhe.. God is good kok ya.. Hhihiihihih.. I hope my stories can strengthen you ya.. And ada 1 post tentang Valentine lho sebelumnya yang belum saya post sampai detik ini,omo!! Hopefully soon ya.. Okay deh kalau gitu, enjoy your day guys! :)

Ecclesiates 3:1 = "THERE IS A TIME FOR EVERYTHING, AND A SEASON FOR EVERY ACTIVITY under the heaves"

Regards, Cindy